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doublecupj
Member
- Jul 12, 2022
- 40
I've messed my life up really bad. I quit my job 2 weeks ago, since I was intending to CTB on 7/1/24.
Now the day is here. I'm sitting inside Starbucks. My gun is in my car. Lied and told my family I was going back to work today from a vacation. They love me a lot. But I don't feel like they know the real me. I've done so much wrong. Lied to them. Stolen from them. If I continue living I could end up in prison.
So I need the courage to end it. I'm scared and worried my gun won't work. I'm afraid of failing. And sad that this will likely devastate my family. I wrote them a note apologizing and telling them I love them.
I'm just....stuck.
Now the day is here. I'm sitting inside Starbucks. My gun is in my car. Lied and told my family I was going back to work today from a vacation. They love me a lot. But I don't feel like they know the real me. I've done so much wrong. Lied to them. Stolen from them. If I continue living I could end up in prison.
So I need the courage to end it. I'm scared and worried my gun won't work. I'm afraid of failing. And sad that this will likely devastate my family. I wrote them a note apologizing and telling them I love them.
I'm just....stuck.