Venting Today is my birthday.

[crea_the_hopeless]

Today is my birthday and I hate it. I'm pissed that I'm still here. I spent this whole day wishing I was never born. How can I celebrate something as stupid as my birth? I never asked to be here. Never wanted to be here. And I'm beyond pissed that I'm still here. I should have never made it past 18 yet here I am at 23 failing just as hard as i was then. What a fucked up journey. I just need to get back to my dorm so I can get my meto. Sorry for ranting but I have no one I can talk to.

 

[Jean4]

Today is my birthday and I hate it. I'm pissed that I'm still here. I spent this whole day wishing I was never born. How can I celebrate something as stupid as my birth? I never asked to be here. Never wanted to be here. And I'm beyond pissed that I'm still here. I should have never made it past 18 yet here I am at 23 failing just as hard as i was then. What a fucked up journey. I just need to get back to my dorm so I can get my meto. Sorry for ranting but I have no one I can talk to.

Happy Birthday! I'm glad that you are here. I also know what it is like to be alone on your birthday. I have had 51 to live through. You can celebrate with us! I know it isn't the greatest, but you aren't alone.

 

[Squiddy]

Happy birthday. I know how you feel. I also feel like I shouldn't have made it past 18

 

[Ross]

Today is my birthday and I hate it. I'm pissed that I'm still here. I spent this whole day wishing I was never born. How can I celebrate something as stupid as my birth? I never asked to be here. Never wanted to be here. And I'm beyond pissed that I'm still here. I should have never made it past 18 yet here I am at 23 failing just as hard as i was then. What a fucked up journey. I just need to get back to my dorm so I can get my meto. Sorry for ranting but I have no one I can talk to.

Happy birthday. It's still your day

 

[xxsweetopheliaxx]

I hope you find happiness in your existence. Thank you for being born.

 

[Ark]

I feel for you. I am happy I won't be here for my next birthday. I am sorry your having sucha bad day though.

 

[Alec]

I'll be 23 in two months too. Feel the same way, like maybe I should've don't this at 18. Got my date too though.
And btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!;) I get that you don't like this day and I get why, but still I wish for you to feel at least a tiniest bit better, and I'm with you, I want you to know that. So yeah, Happy Birthday from someone who gets it at least a little bit, gets how you feel and the situation we are all in.

 

[c824767]

Today is my birthday and I hate it. I'm pissed that I'm still here. I spent this whole day wishing I was never born. How can I celebrate something as stupid as my birth? I never asked to be here. Never wanted to be here. And I'm beyond pissed that I'm still here. I should have never made it past 18 yet here I am at 23 failing just as hard as i was then. What a fucked up journey. I just need to get back to my dorm so I can get my meto. Sorry for ranting but I have no one I can talk to.

we all need a voice to talk about our feelings. Everyone is so "shocked" when I say I want to die. I think you have to be Super Insensitive if you think it is OK to live on this earth.

 

[realjunes]

Ok, Crea....I won't say "happy" to you, I understand. But I am grateful you took a moment to let us know what you are feeling this minute, and I hope you can have in your mind that there are at least 40 people right now on this site supporting you and caring about you. I hope we hear from you again. We want peace for you.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

we all need a voice to talk about our feelings. Everyone is so "shocked" when I say I want to die. I think you have to be Super Insensitive if you think it is OK to live on this earth.

Yeah they get shocked when i talk about death. They're delusional. They have no idea what reality is they think they will live forever and never get sick.

 

[Sdj]

Happy birthday. No need to apologize for ranting, I think this is about as good a crowd as it gets for posting whatever stupid shit is in your brain at the moment... If you could get us all together in a comedy club I'm sure the guy on stage would think he had the best performance of his life

 

[crea_the_hopeless]

Well thank you all for the birthday wishes. Even though I'm not happy about my existence I still appreciate the effort and the love y'all extended

 

[realjunes]

Well thank you all for the birthday wishes. Even though I'm not happy about my existence I still appreciate the effort and the love y'all extended

Now we're talking Crea...I am happy for your existence. You brought a bit of meaning to my life for this little while. Thank you, and we apparently have lots of love to extend to you, so anytime come on back.

 

[Jean4]

Well thank you all for the birthday wishes. Even though I'm not happy about my existence I still appreciate the effort and the love y'all extended

Remember. None of us are happy about our existence which is why we are here.

We are all brothers and sisters here. So you have your family happy you are here, even if you aren't. ;)

 

[Hydrokhoos]

Wishing you well, even on days that can be painful like this ❤

 

[Green Destiny]

I'm right there with you my friend. My Birthday was a week and a few days ago and I felt nothing but resentment, sadness and despair over the fact that I'm still here. Hope you feel better soon.

 

[BlueWidow]

Yeah they get shocked when i talk about death. They're delusional. They have no idea what reality is they think they will live forever and never get sick.

So many people are afraid of death and think it's the worst thing that can happen to you. There are SO MANY things in this world worse than death.

 

[Jean4]

So many people are afraid of death and think it's the worst thing that can happen to you. There are SO MANY things in this world worse than death.

 

[BlueWidow]

Jean4, you are a treasure.

 

[XoXoNae]

Happy Bi

Well thank you all for the birthday wishes. Even though I'm not happy about my existence I still appreciate the effort and the love y'all extended

Happy Birthday Beautiful Queen



(Forgive my humor but I had to) lol

 

[c824767]

Yeah they get shocked when i talk about death. They're delusional. They have no idea what reality is they think they will live forever and never get sick.

They think I am healthy. They say, you are OK, there is nothing wrong with you, why do you want to die. They do not understand the trauma in my head. The wounds in my mind, the animalistic cruelty of this planet that kills my mind.

 

[crea_the_hopeless]

Happy Bi

Happy Birthday Beautiful Queen



(Forgive my humor but I had to) lol

This was the highlight of my birthday. Thank you for this

 

[XoXoNae]

This was the highlight of my birthday. Thank you for this

And you were the highlight of mine, thank you for being born...

 

[Hopeindeath!]

Happy Birthday. I hope things get better for you.

 

[XoXoNae]

This was the highlight of my birthday. Thank you for this

I never even asked... how old??

 

[Time]

Happy Birthday, crea.

 

[Rohit]

Today is my birthday and I hate it. I'm pissed that I'm still here. I spent this whole day wishing I was never born. How can I celebrate something as stupid as my birth? I never asked to be here. Never wanted to be here. And I'm beyond pissed that I'm still here. I should have never made it past 18 yet here I am at 23 failing just as hard as i was then. What a fucked up journey. I just need to get back to my dorm so I can get my meto. Sorry for ranting but I have no one I can talk to.

Happy birthday to you ...

 

[pole]

happy belated birthday. my birthday was actually on the 9th, just a day before yours, so 9th and 10th. anyways, i definitely feel the same about birthdays. never have and never will celebrate birthdays, i hate getting older and never really wanted to see my 20s, but here i am turning 20.

hope you had a good birthday. hope you find peace.

 

[crea_the_hopeless]

I never even asked... how old??

I'm 23.

 

[Jean4]

I'm 23.

24 candles then on your cupcake. ;)