Today I'm falling

[Flying Away]

The past few days have been positive and I felt the person who could save me was responsive. Kind, loving and caring. Today it feels like things have returned to normal. The rollercoaster ride is beginning to wear me down. Hope is replaced with doubt. I have changed my date numerous times recently. I have to stick to my guns with my latest date. Don't want these feelings to continue to hurt. Today has been a bad day. Mistake after Mistake is the story of my life. Need to do better but feel I make things worse. Head feels foggy and chest is tight. I have a heart condition and wish it would kill me now

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand the feeling of just wishing to be gone. I know that it is dreadful when things just get worse. This life really is so tiring. I hope that you find relief from your suffering.