Today I will ctb

[Abaigh]

I don't have hope or motivation or anyone anymore.
I'm done half of the letters already. While I was writing them my cat sat on my paper so I couldn't write. I know it sounds stupid but it feels like he know because he usually likes to be alone and Dosent want pets but he kept rubbing against me.
Anyways my method is to just bleed out because there would be no other way to get supplies.
Thank you all for the support on here.
At the back of my mind it's telling me not to so I'm still not sure if I'll have the will power to fully go through it.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I can't wish you but the best in whatever you choose. I'm so sorry you've come to this. Hugs.

 

[Inferdan]

I don't have hope or motivation or anyone anymore.
I'm done half of the letters already. While I was writing them my cat sat on my paper so I couldn't write. I know it sounds stupid but it feels like he know because he usually likes to be alone and Dosent want pets but he kept rubbing against me.
Anyways my method is to just bleed out because there would be no other way to get supplies.
Thank you all for the support on here.
At the back of my mind it's telling me not to so I'm still not sure if I'll have the will power to fully go through it.

In the end, you are your own master. You have decided, and so we shall support you. I wish you a peaceful passing, and that you may find the fulfillment and happiness you much need and deserve.

 

[MsMaudlin]

I'm sorry that you feel this is the only option to take.

Please keep talking to us on here.

Surrounding you in love and light ❤

 

[randomz]

Cats have great instincts and understanding of humans (even though some people think they are not so inteliigent) So this is one soul that wants you to stay. We here are also with you and want you to make the right decision not based on emotions and recent events.

 

[Root]

So sorry you're feeling this bad. I wish you peace and send a hug. Whatever you choose to do we will support you.

 

[NaNo210]

I'm so sorry about everything that has happened to you to lead to this point. I do think talking on here helps a lot with these situations, to not at least feel alone even up to our last moments. Whatever you choose I hope you find some peace, and can get out of there

 

[jgm63]

Regarding your chosen method (bleeding out), have you used the search function on this site, and tried to read up as much as you can ?
example :

Spoiler: search

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/search/218615/?q=bleeding&c[title_only]=1&o=date

I've taken a read through those threads, and it seems like a difficult method.
I am wondering if you should perhaps stop, and have a rethink....

If you are determined that you wish to CTB, then jumping might be a better method than the one you've chosen.

However, if you decide to proceed then I wish you a safe journey

Note : As always, please note that I strongly encourage you to seek help with whatever is troubling you. With the right help things can improve. There are many sources of help if you look and reach out. Please seek assistance in any and every way possible. You alone must decide upon your actions and take full responsibility for them, and you should always favour seeking help and keeping out of harm's way.

 

[140 bpm]

I'm sorry to hear that things went that way , so you decide CTB today... are you sure about method? Hope it's not really painful.
And I can't ask what about you cat? He feels it and looks like will be stuck in your apartment after you'll go

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I wish for you peace in whatever you decide.

 

[voyager]

Good luck, Abaigh. Hope you find comfort with this method and a better place.

 

[Abaigh]

I couldn't do it.

 

[Shero]

I couldn't do it.

It's all good, don't patronize yourself, we are here if needed.

 

[jgm63]

I couldn't do it.

We're all here to support you....
Perhaps take some time to think about what you want to do, and come up with some type of plan....
In the meantime, relax a little bit if you can and try to enjoy some music or a film or something.
It's going to be okay, you will figure out how to get through this, and we are here....

 

[Ghost2211]

It's ok. Cutting is not one of the easier methods. If you are determined to ctb I recommend doing some research into all the methods, as well as the proper way to cut. Cutting has a high fail rate since many that do it are not familiar with the anatomy, it takes a while if done wrong, and an artery spraying is quite impressive which can trigger survival instincts.

I hope you have relief and peace, we are here for you. You are not alone.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

Be kind to yourself today. You have been through a lot.

Pet your cat and love on him a little. He's glad you're still here.

There are lots of options here that would not be so painful if that is what you wish. There is a ton of information, lots of stuff to read.

Plus, there are all of us great people here as well. You can talk to us, we're really friendly and will support you in your choice.

 

[Lostandfound7]

So happy ur still here my Love..Cats r very intuitive. They pick up on ur moods n emotions. Yrs ago before we met n got married, my husband put a gun to his head n his cat jumped off the dresser unto his shoulder right when he pulled the trigger..the bullet ended up going thru the roof of the house..

So happy ur still here my Love..Cats r very intuitive. They pick up on ur moods n emotions. Yrs ago before we met n got married, my husband put a gun to his head n his cat jumped off the dresser unto his shoulder right when he pulled the trigger..the bullet ended up going thru the roof of the house..

Love on ur cat until u decide what to do..sending u love

 

[hershberger]

Don't be too hard on yourself. Choosing ctb is always an option, and even though today didn't work out the way you intended, and you can always go later.

I'll tell you a story. One day, I was at work and realized I had forgotten my wallet. Since it was a short drive home, I went to get my wallet on my lunch hour, only to find one of our cats dead in the road. And so, there I was, in my work clothes, crying like a baby and digging a grave.

I swear the next part is true.

We had two other cats, and during the whole time I was digging the hole to bury our poor cat, the other two stayed near me as if it was a funeral. They were there with me the whole time, and I came up with a little eulogy for our dear departed friend. As I walked away, they followed me. That was 15 years ago, and it completely changed my relationship with cats. Before that, I liked them. Since then, I have made a point to pay attention to them and always show my appreciation for them. I don't know what they know, but they know something, and I love them for that.

May you find peace and comfort in whatever choice you make.

 

[Quarky00]

I couldn't do it.

I say, blame the damn cat

You've done nothing wrong.

Plz feel free to let us know how you're feeling

(damn cats!)