Today I realized that I'm just deluding myself

[chocolatebar]

The things I'm doing and anything else I start will only bring me results in 4 or more years. I don't have all this time. My life is gone already.

Now I will try to sleep and try to forget that I exist for a little while (if one of those nightmares don't disturb me)

 

[M.i.245541]

4 years is a long time. Why do you think that you don't have time, if I may ask?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

If you're talking about school, yeah, that can take four years, or more, until you see the results of your effort. It can be worth it. It is for a lot of people.

 

[Ldog9]

Yeah, if its school, I think you'll be shocked to how fast 4 years can go. If its college, summer + winter sessions, finishing earlier is a very real possibility.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering. I know that it can be dreadful when everything seems so hopeless. I just want to forget about my life as well, and that is why the thought of no longer existing comforts me. This life can be really tiring, but I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[chocolatebar]

4 years is a long time. Why do you think that you don't have time, if I may ask?

The time I estimated to get a job and be able to move to another place by myself, mostly. It was based on the time other people are taking for that where I live.

I'm at a critical age point and I will never be able to live a single day of my youth by myself, as a free person.

If you're talking about school, yeah, that can take four years, or more, until you see the results of your effort. It can be worth it. It is for a lot of people.

Yeah, if its school, I think you'll be shocked to how fast 4 years can go. If its college, summer + winter sessions, finishing earlier is a very real possibility.

No, definitely not school... in fact, I'm out from school since... well, ages ago.

I'm sorry that you are suffering. I know that it can be dreadful when everything seems so hopeless. I just want to forget about my life as well, and that is why the thought of no longer existing comforts me. This life can be really tiring, but I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

are you able to take refuge in your sleep?

 

[FuneralCry]

are you able to take refuge in your sleep?

No, sometimes I struggle to sleep and then I wake up too early. I could never really take comfort in sleep because I know that it is very likely that I will wake up the next day and I will have to endure the horrors of existence all over again. I only take comfort from the thought of an eternal dreamless sleep as I know that nothing can hurt me then.