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ultrasharpy123456
Wizard
- Aug 18, 2022
- 634
Yeah that's it. If God were real then I'm just his play thing. I'm just his toy for him to abuse. People are SUPPOSED to yell at me. People are SUPPOSED to argue with me and criticize me about every little thing I do. I'm SUPPOSED to be made fun of. When I fight back they just get angrier and angrier and I'm clearly in the wrong. So why bother?
Everytime I try to get a job it never works out, I can't even get an interview, money making things have never worked out. And that's OK. They're not SUPPOSED to work out, nothing is supposed to go my way. And frankly I couldn't be happier. Because now I can kill myself without regrets! I wasn't supposed to stand up for myself. And that's a good thing, standing up for myself is exhausting. Frankly I'm tired of fighting back.
So I accept it. Ok life you win. If this is really how life is supposed to be then I won't worry. There wasn't anything I could've done anyway. And I can finally die in peace. In fact more than anything I'm happy to know I am supposed to be a failure because at least I know this was meant to be. Now I'll try to kill myself with my SN tomorrow.
Everytime I try to get a job it never works out, I can't even get an interview, money making things have never worked out. And that's OK. They're not SUPPOSED to work out, nothing is supposed to go my way. And frankly I couldn't be happier. Because now I can kill myself without regrets! I wasn't supposed to stand up for myself. And that's a good thing, standing up for myself is exhausting. Frankly I'm tired of fighting back.
So I accept it. Ok life you win. If this is really how life is supposed to be then I won't worry. There wasn't anything I could've done anyway. And I can finally die in peace. In fact more than anything I'm happy to know I am supposed to be a failure because at least I know this was meant to be. Now I'll try to kill myself with my SN tomorrow.