SomePeacePlease
Passenger
- May 28, 2023
- 6
Hello,
I was first admitted in 2005 due to "Being a risk to myself". At that time I had no choice due to age, but now....
My therapist have diagnosed me as "Chronically Suicidal", and I simply can't go on.
Here is my "problem" though. I have a 8 year old son. I love him, but diagnosed with MDD and anxiety, I don't believe I can be a good father. My son lives with his mother, and she is great. I have him in weekends, and I love him so much.
The demons that live in my head simply won't let me keep living. I've tried everything. Every antidepressant, benzo and even electroshock.
I just don't know how to justify putting my son through this, despite believing he'll be better off without me.
People with kids that plan on ctb, how did you get past this thought? I know many will think I'm a horrible person, but I'm just so tired, and can't go on. Over half my life now I've fought demons and been seeking help wherever I could. I'm in my 40s now.
I was first admitted in 2005 due to "Being a risk to myself". At that time I had no choice due to age, but now....
My therapist have diagnosed me as "Chronically Suicidal", and I simply can't go on.
Here is my "problem" though. I have a 8 year old son. I love him, but diagnosed with MDD and anxiety, I don't believe I can be a good father. My son lives with his mother, and she is great. I have him in weekends, and I love him so much.
The demons that live in my head simply won't let me keep living. I've tried everything. Every antidepressant, benzo and even electroshock.
I just don't know how to justify putting my son through this, despite believing he'll be better off without me.
People with kids that plan on ctb, how did you get past this thought? I know many will think I'm a horrible person, but I'm just so tired, and can't go on. Over half my life now I've fought demons and been seeking help wherever I could. I'm in my 40s now.