to people wondering why ive been on this forum for 3yrs and still havent ctb

[snowman626]

just because im still on here almost 3 years after i signed up, and im still talking about methods i might use myself, doesnt mean im not serious about it. i just dont plan on doing it until either my mother dies, something permanent that impacts my quality of life, or until its time (i dont want to be older than 55-ish, im almost 40 now)

my plan to ctb is not due to "life is so terrible" or "cant escape the thoughts of suicide", my plan to ctb is based off of a philosophy that i should choose how my life ends, and not leave it up to fate. in the same way that i can choose to start reading a book and then close the book without finishing it, i can close my life without "finishing" it. there is no rule in any rulebook that says i have to stay till the end

 

[LoveTakesManyForms]

Fair enough. It stands to reason that anyone who takes time out to visit and post on a suicide website is serious about it; most people don't even know places like this exist.

You are not on a time limit to CTB my friend, not by our standards at least. It is an honour that you would share with us, and I wish you well.

And I understand your philosophical choice. I once read of a man who wrote a massive dissertation on why suicide is the only moral path to take. He then shot himself upon its completion.
Whilst I am chronically suicidal, part of the reason I want to die is that to live would mean failing to live up to the promise I made to myself of a decent life despite growing up poor with a chronically ill mother and a rich Father who never did shit for me or my brother.

 

[Deleted member 8579]

You don't have to justify anything. Signing up to this forum does not come with an obligation to kill yourself, far from it.

I once read of a man who wrote a massive dissertation on why suicide is the only moral path to take. He then shot himself upon its completion.

Mitchell Heisman.

 

[motel rooms]

just because im still on here almost 3 years after i signed up, and im still talking about methods i might use myself, doesnt mean im not serious about it.

There are people who joined SS in 2018. None of you owe anyone any explanations, this isn't a suicide cult.

 

[LoveTakesManyForms]

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You don't have to justify anything. Signing up to this forum does not come with an obligation to kill yourself, far from it.

Mitchell Heisman.

Thank you! I couldn't remember the man's name. I've been wanting to read the dissertation for quite some time. Much appreciated.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I could see taking a really long time myself. It's incredibly frightening.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand what you are saying. Of course there is no rush to ctb, this website is pro choice meaning that we have the right to exit this world at a time of our own choosing. Just because you are going to ctb later on in life does not mean you are any less serious. I relate a lot to your philosophy, I want to be the one to choose when to exit, I want to exit on my own terms, when the time is right. I wish you the best.

 

[Someone123]

just because im still on here almost 3 years after i signed up, and im still talking about methods i might use myself, doesnt mean im not serious about it. i just dont plan on doing it until either my mother dies, something permanent that impacts my quality of life, or until its time (i dont want to be older than 55-ish, im almost 40 now)

my plan to ctb is not due to "life is so terrible" or "cant escape the thoughts of suicide", my plan to ctb is based off of a philosophy that i should choose how my life ends, and not leave it up to fate. in the same way that i can choose to start reading a book and then close the book without finishing it, i can close my life without "finishing" it. there is no rule in any rulebook that says i have to stay till the end

That's a legit reason, though it could mean not doing this for another fifty years, which is ok.

 

[Susannah]

just because im still on here almost 3 years after i signed up, and im still talking about methods i might use myself, doesnt mean im not serious about it. i just dont plan on doing it until either my mother dies, something permanent that impacts my quality of life, or until its time (i dont want to be older than 55-ish, im almost 40 now)

my plan to ctb is not due to "life is so terrible" or "cant escape the thoughts of suicide", my plan to ctb is based off of a philosophy that i should choose how my life ends, and not leave it up to fate. in the same way that i can choose to start reading a book and then close the book without finishing it, i can close my life without "finishing" it. there is no rule in any rulebook that says i have to stay till the end

Same here. Luckily we're not obliged to ctb even though some might think so;)

 

[Silent.Tears]

I really respect that. Wishing you good health.

just because im still on here almost 3 years after i signed up, and im still talking about methods i might use myself, doesnt mean im not serious about it. i just dont plan on doing it until either my mother dies, something permanent that impacts my quality of life, or until its time (i dont want to be older than 55-ish, im almost 40 now)

my plan to ctb is not due to "life is so terrible" or "cant escape the thoughts of suicide", my plan to ctb is based off of a philosophy that i should choose how my life ends, and not leave it up to fate. in the same way that i can choose to start reading a book and then close the book without finishing it, i can close my life without "finishing" it. there is no rule in any rulebook that says i have to stay till the end

 

[Thisisme373]

I respect that, I myself fluctuate between feeling suicidle & feeling depressed but able to carry on, I would like to have a method ready though for if my life becomes even worse & unbearable. What makes it tough is living in UK, like no access to guns, plus the other options everything is so difficult to get! I'd like to have something ready, like a safety net.

 

[whywere]

I so, so much LOVE @hotelbeneathground reply. It to me is spot on. I joined for various reasons, but to ctb in a certain time frame or join just to ctb, umm..NO!

I found that SS is like a sanctuarie for me, as I consider everyone to be like a family on here and I have so many friends on here. Like this last week, I had a lot of chronic pain procedures done on me, like needles in my backbone with no anesthesia, and that was the small stuff done to me. I thought through all of it about all the awesome and so darn nice people on SS and who with me having zero family and/or friends, ALL the folks on SS REALLY helped me.

We are all different and also the same on so many things, but one should, hopefully, never just assume anything, like when someone joins SS.

I thank everyone here so much for all the kindness and , at least for me, the family like feeling that I get from SS and EVERYONE here, thank you!

Walter

 

[Someone123]

I so, so much LOVE @hotelbeneathground reply. It to me is spot on. I joined for various reasons, but to ctb in a certain time frame or join just to ctb, umm..NO!

I found that SS is like a sanctuarie for me, as I consider everyone to be like a family on here and I have so many friends on here. Like this last week, I had a lot of chronic pain procedures done on me, like needles in my backbone with no anesthesia, and that was the small stuff done to me. I thought through all of it about all the awesome and so darn nice people on SS and who with me having zero family and/or friends, ALL the folks on SS REALLY helped me.

We are all different and also the same on so many things, but one should, hopefully, never just assume anything, like when someone joins SS.

I thank everyone here so much for all the kindness and , at least for me, the family like feeling that I get from SS and EVERYONE here, tahnk you!

Walter

My hope is that people from this site can possibly be reunited to some extent in the next life. In some ndes (near death experiences) people are sp-ots of light and they instantly connect with a large number of others there, so there seems to be some hope of this.