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death will be my ultimate bliss
- Oct 29, 2023
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In my case, I will never wish to voluntarily live life after knowing everything that it offers to me. I don't understand why most people even enjoy life to begin with. Sure, there are answers like "they live for loved ones" or "they like the good things" and so on but I still can't comprehend any of it until I experience it myself which I know I ever won't. I won't ever enjoy life because of my neurotype. Ever since I was born, I had nothing that I enjoyed. I don't enjoy anything at all and I never did. At best it's tolerable and passes time but definitely not enjoyable.
Also, I'm anti suffering unlike everybody else. I don't want to suffer at all, even if the suffering is minute. I reject all forms of suffering that I go through and I always will. It's impossible for somebody like me to enjoy life because life is always guaranteed to have suffering.
I don't want to live, I never did. I only find solace in the idea of death, a blissful death. Nothing else in life makes me think "yeah, that's worth living for".
I don't want life at all and I never will voluntarily choose life. I only want peace by being non existent and never having to function ever again
Also, I'm anti suffering unlike everybody else. I don't want to suffer at all, even if the suffering is minute. I reject all forms of suffering that I go through and I always will. It's impossible for somebody like me to enjoy life because life is always guaranteed to have suffering.
I don't want to live, I never did. I only find solace in the idea of death, a blissful death. Nothing else in life makes me think "yeah, that's worth living for".
I don't want life at all and I never will voluntarily choose life. I only want peace by being non existent and never having to function ever again