Does anyone else just feel so tired of thinking about killing themselves as it's so consuming every day, it's like you can't live but you don't know how to die. Almost like you have to start living or go then getting annoyed at yourself as you simply don't know what normal is anyway so death is a much better option
Rachel74
Enlightened
- Sep 7, 2019
- 1,716
Yes I have been there and it's not a nice place. I decided I wouldn't die trying it so when I'm ready I will. I know my method and I'll stick to that.
The waiting game is hard, same thoughts every single day.. i feel you
bluesky1972-2019
Specialist
- May 21, 2019
- 377
It's almost like the famous line from The Shawshank Redemption. "best get busy living or get busy dying". I don't know which.
Best....but harder. Staying as still as possible and hoping neither life nor death notice you and cause trouble is a much more comfortable, albeit unhelpful, tactic.
cherub
Fvcking Loser
- Jan 27, 2019
- 147
Yes. It's a weird purgatory-like state, and it's very uncomfortable. I hate the uncertainty of it all.
oxymoron
Arcanist
- Jul 18, 2019
- 439
Tired and fearful of the unknown that includes both living and or dying. Wish someone put a bullet in my head.
Sooniwontbehuman
Member
- Sep 7, 2019
- 40
I think that's what state I am in now. And yea its exhausting, everything is exhausting.
Yep this is me. How can it be so exhausting doing nothing but fretting whether to live or not? I want to ctb spontaneously but the shit part is knowing a day later I might have changed my mind. That's why I'd love to die in a car crash (with no one else involved obviously..)
oxymoron
Arcanist
- Jul 18, 2019
- 439
okaoki
last
- Aug 4, 2018
- 251
same here , i want to have a better life and live but that's just fantasy
most likely few months left to go.
most likely few months left to go.
