Tired of postponing my plans

[meles_inoris]

I said I would ctb last month, I didn't. I said I would ctb before the end of this month, still nope. I had a day set out where I would go out in the woods and set myself alight. Didn't even gather materials. God damn I'm such a pussy. And the only method I had got taken away. So basically I'm fucked.

 

[luna666]

Sorry to hear about your situation. I'm sharing something close to it but in the end It's better to postpone and do it right than to do it in a nervous way and end up in a worse situation due to SI or the plans going in the wrong direction.
There's nothing wrong about waiting.
Suicide is a one scene moment that last the eternity, so, thinking about it over and over, planning and waiting is really common for those wanting to ctb.
But whatever situation you decide for yourself I hope you find the peace that you're searching for!

 

[one4all]

@meles_inoris I saw a couple posts of yours about hanging. Does this mean you want to self immolate instead of hanging?
I will assume the belt and or your door where taken away from you.

 

[oneofthoseyoudontwan]

I could tell you that you are not the only one who is postponing ctb plans, i can understand you, about feeling anxiety or even upset.

Take this time to think about your plans, about you, even might you can change your mind about ctbing,

Just wishing the best for you.

 

[faust]

You are not a pussy and your situation can mean that plans are simply not for you.
They were not for me as well, everything is constantly going wrong if I plan.
Don't think about this too much, CTB option will never run away from you...

 

[calendulo]

It is true, when oneself postpones their planning day after day could looks like an incovenient; but looking at the bright side, it allows for to do better researching, get over those last doubts about your method, to try a different procedure; then you can rereading some books or particular experiences that can improve its quality and reliability.

 

[meles_inoris]

@meles_inoris I saw a couple posts of yours about hanging. Does this mean you want to self immolate instead of hanging?
I will assume the belt and or your door where taken away from you.

I am considering either of those two, or an overdose on heroin or ketamine. My grandmother took my belt a while ago, but I still have my doors

 

[one4all]

I am considering either of those two, or an overdose on heroin or ketamine. My grandmother took my belt a while ago, but I still have my doors

Well at least they left the door. I can't begin to tell you how many times ive backed out and that includes today. Backing out doesn't mean you're a pussy. Not to sound cliche but shit doesn't always go according to plan. I wish you luck with your endeavors though and finding peace.