Help Tired of living, scared to die

[Fight_or_flight]

I can't continue living anymore. I'm tired of living through another day, getting up and enduring problems after problems. When I look to the future, there's nothing ahead. Why is it so difficult to leave this place……… I'm considering the charcoal method or plastic bag + xanax method. But even those methods are difficult to carry out. How do you overcome survival instinct? How many benzodiazepines is required for a small built person? Would it be painful? How to ensure that it'd be pain free?
y is no one replying …. zzz

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

Same here. Just pointless grinding day by day, throughout years.

 

[Meteora]

Same. Day by day the same story, the same abusive, egoistic ppl, yet difficult to take the final step.

 

[wisp]

Same. The only reason I haven't killed myself yet is the dog, my dog. I love when I wake up and he parties with me, I come home and the dog parties with me, wants to play and go out for walks or play with other dogs.
My dog is the only thing that makes me feel alive and if I died, I don't know in whose hands it would go. Unfortunately in my areas many people hate dogs, they even put poison on the streets aimed at killing them.
People here abandon dogs, or mistreat them, so I'm afraid to leave my dog in the hands of some psychopathic bastard who I would stalk while dead while I'm a "wandering soul"

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

At least I have my SN exit kit more or less prepared, although with only dimenhydrinate OTC AE.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also feel tired of suffering in this existence, it really shouldn't be so unnecessarily difficult to die. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

 

[GeoLavender23]

Yeah scared too, my mind can't even think straight to even do it, just suffering until I probably do it impulsively some day but no idea how will I..

 

[Fight_or_flight]

thanks for replying, i feel less alone now. just need to gather the resource and courage to end it.

 

[losing hope]

Same.