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bluelou
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- Nov 10, 2022
- 14
I am so tired of feeling tired. The cycle of cptsd, recurrent untreatable depression and anxiety has me feeling like ctb is the only way to stop it.
I've been given all manor of meds and last year got to lithium which for a while has helped but the lows are creeping in again. The flashbacks keep on coming, and I wonder why I bother I asked for help this morning after a night full of flashbacks and everyone I asked was too busy. I guess I really am a burden to people. I told my husband last week that I had planning thoughts in my head again and now here I am again at the next stage talking on here to people who get it. This time I feel like it really will be the only option, I have a psych apt Monday and I don't know which way to go... I use zopiclone for sleep and plan an od, then cutting and a nice warm bath to drift off with the help of the od. Do I tell the psych I have a plan, do I give this shitty life one more try and lose the sleeping meds and probably others?
I'm completely feeling broken.
I've been given all manor of meds and last year got to lithium which for a while has helped but the lows are creeping in again. The flashbacks keep on coming, and I wonder why I bother I asked for help this morning after a night full of flashbacks and everyone I asked was too busy. I guess I really am a burden to people. I told my husband last week that I had planning thoughts in my head again and now here I am again at the next stage talking on here to people who get it. This time I feel like it really will be the only option, I have a psych apt Monday and I don't know which way to go... I use zopiclone for sleep and plan an od, then cutting and a nice warm bath to drift off with the help of the od. Do I tell the psych I have a plan, do I give this shitty life one more try and lose the sleeping meds and probably others?
I'm completely feeling broken.