Help Tips on overcome fear of death

[azeria]

My first post. I'm A. Sorry if I post it to the wrong category. I'm not exactly looking for a long time to stay anyway.

I'm tired, I have done multiple attempts. Each time I called a friend because I'm scared, they convinced me not to do it. Rinse and Repeat.

I wrote a feature article on my suicide experience, but I'm still scared to do it.

Obviously I can't ask dead people to tell me how to overcome death, but I still like to know how it feels like to not think.

I tried internalizing the constant pain I'm feeling because everytime I'm not distracted I IMMEDIATELY thought of that thing. I'll make it worse in hoping it'll increase my confidence to attempt.
Didn't work, make me turmoil further and procrastinate my attempt.

Sleeping pills are unavailable for FEMALES because I live in a shitty misogynistic society. I can ask for a male to get it but I barely know anyone. I was trying to kill myself during sleep.

I was also worried for my family facing harassment from the public because I decided to ctb. Suicide is illegal in my country here until 2023, if I do it in 20203 my family will be penalized and fined by the law Very stupid. But if I do it now, they'll be shamed by society forever because I live in a very traditional and conservative community. People do not treat mentally ill people kindly here, including their families. Backward fucking society.

Need advices on gaining confident to ctb. No I'm tired of living thanks but apparently not tired enough to not be scared which I hate it so much.

 

[Liammm]

Its ok. i felt the same for the longest time, a. i cant and wont encourage you to harm yourself. But i can share how i got past my wants to live. Writing letters to important people in my life, wether i wanted to send them or not helped me come to terms with my death. And understanding that life moves on for everyone with or without me also helped. i will miss my friends. But, thats ok. Because when we die, we wont have the ability to care. We wont have the ability to be sad. We will be free. Thats just how i view it.

i hope you find peace. And i hate that misogyny is alive and well in our world today. You deserve respect as any other human no matter what.

 

[hschaf]

Writing letters to important people in my life, wether i wanted to send them or not helped me come to terms with my death.

Can you explain this to me?

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of suffering, for me personally what I fear instead is suffering for way longer in this torturous existence, it's so terrifying to me how there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence, I wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, I wish you the best.

 

[Forveleth]

Welcome to SaSu! Sorry life has brought you to this point.

I have typed long explanations to this elsewhere but, in brief, I have found that people fear what they do not know. So, get to know death. Know what happens physically when you die. Another thing that gives people pause is unfinished business. Get your affairs in order. Finish projects you want done, write a will if you want one.

There are lots and lots of threads here on this topic, I would suggest making more posts so you can unlock the search feature and find them. (check out the Offtopic section for forum games to make some easy quick posts)

 

[azeria]

Welcome to SaSu! Sorry life has brought you to this point.

I have typed long explanations to this elsewhere but, in brief, I have found that people fear what they do not know. So, get to know death. Know what happens physically when you die. Another thing that gives people pause is unfinished business. Get your affairs in order. Finish projects you want done, write a will if you want one.

There are lots and lots of threads here on this topic, I would suggest making more posts so you can unlock the search feature and find them. (check out the Offtopic section for forum games to make some easy quick posts)

"Unfinished business" and get my affairs in order.

I mean, I am currently drawing a comic, and it currently has 12 pages (and still going,) but that sounds like an excuse.

Whenever I attempted, I always thought "what would the people I know feel about this", and I feel bad that they have to carry on the burden of the fact that I died.
This comment led me to think I should give them some sort of reassurance after death.

You make a lot of sense, I'll take the advice. Thank you so much

 

[ndoprsge22]

Newbie here. I may be dumb but I cant figure out how to post in order to unlock the search feature…only to comment. Sorry to hijack the post but can someone help.

OP I can understand the struggle whenever you are not distanccted immediately going back to those thoughts, I struggle to shpwer do the lack of distraction. I wish I had more helpful advice. Writing a full feature on your experience takes a lot of courage. I hope it helps others.

 

[idontwanttosuffer]

I find death beautiful. It's calming and melancholic. It's feels like getting off at your stop after a long train journey. It feels relaxing. And to know that I've completed this cycle relaxes me. Nothing to look forward to or to be anxious about, a calm nothingness.

I only care about my parents and I know society is rotten in general. So I'd definitely miss my parents and I'm scared about them. I'm scared how will they react and what will happen to them when I'm gone, who will take care of them. These stuff worry me the most. I'll have to get my things sorted, move my money to their accounts and stuff. Write a note detailing on how then can access them, how to pay certain bills and stuff. I want to give them a closure.

 

[imsorryeveryone]

Currently in the same rut, my life is a living hell.

But my fear of death still outweighs my suffering.

Think i'm stuck in this stasis until the scales tip in sufferings favor.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

I find death beautiful. It's calming and melancholic. It's feels like getting off at your stop after a long train journey. It feels relaxing. And to know that I've completed this cycle relaxes me. Nothing to look forward to or to be anxious about, a calm nothingness.

I only care about my parents and I know society is rotten in general. So I'd definitely miss my parents and I'm scared about them. I'm scared how will they react and what will happen to them when I'm gone, who will take care of them. These stuff worry me the most. I'll have to get my things sorted, move my money to their accounts and stuff. Write a note detailing on how then can access them, how to pay certain bills and stuff. I want to give them a closure.

It sounds as if your train journey has just begun. You should not leave the train too early, there my be some interesting pionts to pass by. I agree in general, death is beautiful but it is not running away, it is waiting for you.

 

[idontwanttosuffer]

It sounds as if your train journey has just begun. You should not leave the train too early, there my be some interesting pionts to pass by. I agree in general, death is beautiful but it is not running away, it is waiting for you.

Thats totally true and yes there are certain tasks unfinished. Thank you!

 

[aiyuxhan]

It sounds as if your train journey has just begun. You should not leave the train too early, there my be some interesting pionts to pass by. I agree in general, death is beautiful but it is not running away, it is waiting for you.

We all get there eventually. Some of us just want to get there sooner and in our own hands lol

But, yeah, I like what you wrote. Beautifully said