everbuzzingone
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- Nov 6, 2020
- 26
March 20, 2020 was the day I noticed a very loud electrical buzzing start out of nowhere in my head, and ever since it hasn't stopped. I can hear it over everything including a loud restaurant, it's incredibly unstable, and reacts to other sounds. It has made every moment of my waking life almost intolerable. I keep hoping that one day it will fade or go away, but as I approach eight months my optimism grows to be less and less.
It's because of the tinnitus that I keep thinking of CTB. I hate how something so evolutionary insignificant can take away almost everything. Adding on that I've had anxiety for over a decade now, and depression that has become so much more intense this last year than it ever has been doesn't help in being able to habituate to it at all. I'm in my early 30's and the thought of living another 50-60 years with tinnitus this severe terrifies me to the point where I'd rather have the lights go out than endure an endless torture of noise inside my head.
I keep holding on to wait out a year or two in the hopes that maybe it'll get better and fade away, but that hasn't stopped me from trying to figure out my method when I just can't tolerate it anymore.
It's because of the tinnitus that I keep thinking of CTB. I hate how something so evolutionary insignificant can take away almost everything. Adding on that I've had anxiety for over a decade now, and depression that has become so much more intense this last year than it ever has been doesn't help in being able to habituate to it at all. I'm in my early 30's and the thought of living another 50-60 years with tinnitus this severe terrifies me to the point where I'd rather have the lights go out than endure an endless torture of noise inside my head.
I keep holding on to wait out a year or two in the hopes that maybe it'll get better and fade away, but that hasn't stopped me from trying to figure out my method when I just can't tolerate it anymore.