Time to end this

[qwerty1969]

I have had enough. Going to drown myself within a week. Never thought this is how my life would end up. Drowning is not something I look forward to that's for sure. Just want to get to the other side asap

 

[puppet_nihilist]

I completely get not having much of a choice when it comes to methods due to ones circumstances, but I found drowning to be more difficult for me to consider compared to both hanging and jumping. I hope you experience no more suffering whatever you decide to do. Do extensive research on it though, drowning could be a terribly painful way out and SI might be strong due to the pain of the method I guess

 

[FuneralCry]

Drowning sounds like such a horrific method to me, but anyway I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for. None of us should have to feel so trapped in this hellish world.

 

[Source Energy]

Did you stop your starvation process? I hope you are eating.

Is it any reason why you don't take something orally instead of these painful methods?

 

[thevaccumguy]

Drowning is...........well, going to suck. I do wish you good luck though. If you really don't have any better methods at hand, I think being drunk should ease the initial suffocation a little bit.

 

[Sunset Limited]

Do you have access to SN?

 

[qwerty1969]

Did you stop your starvation process? I hope you are eating.

Is it any reason why you don't take something orally instead of these painful methods?

Yes stopped the starvation. Only eating once a day and still very skinny though. Starvation is difficult when I can simply order food online etc. Don't have much faith in SN and Gas methods. Gun is my preferred way to go. I would have someone shot me until I was dead. Tried to and still trying to find someone to kill me. I would pay them big money to do it. Sedation and drowning is now something on the agenda but it is going to be a challenge as drowning has always sort of been a big fear for me growing up.

 

[qwerty1969]

Why dont you have faith in SN

Doesn't always work and it could result in even more post attempt health complications. The sensation you have from taking SN is akin to drowning anyways from my understanding.

 

[Source Energy]

Doesn't always work and it could result in even more post attempt health complications. The sensation you have from taking SN is akin to drowning anyways from my understanding.

No. You don't feel like drowning. You pass out from lack of oxygen in your blood. I for one want to sleep in my bed for my last nap

 

[Darkover]

No. You don't feel like drowning. You pass out from lack of oxygen in your blood. I for one want to sleep in my bed for my last nap

there has been report on this forum of people gasping for air

How lucky do you consider someone who has SN?

Idk about lucky, but I'm thankful for it. Imagine if it didn't exist or I couldn't get it? I would be stuck in this hell for another 40 years, crying my fate. Yes, it might not be my first option, but it is the second best, and I have to make do with it. I'm grateful I found out about it, and I...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[qwerty1969]

No. You don't feel like drowning. You pass out from lack of oxygen in your blood. I for one want to sleep in my bed for my last nap

What people see is that you look like you pass out but what you experience is a sensation that you are drowning. This is not my thoughts but that of a medical professional that I recently discovered online.

 

[melancholyc418]

What people see is that you look like you pass out but what you experience is a sensation that you are drowning. This is not my thoughts but that of a medical professional that I recently discovered online.

Not trying to be antagonistic, but this worrries me. Do you mind sharing the source? I thought it just affected the blood

 

[qwerty1969]

Not trying to be antagonistic, but this worrries me. Do you mind sharing the source? I thought it just affected the blood

Can't remember for certain but I think it was an article in the New York Times.

 

[Source Energy]

Not trying to be antagonistic, but this worrries me. Do you mind sharing the source? I thought it just affected the blood

Omg. Please don't say this...how am I gonna ctb then? This is my only hope :(( :((

Is this true? I thought pph rated it 7 on peacefulness scale

 

[situationalsui]

Hey, I nearly attempted drowning this week. My best to you. Not easy. Trying to read about the experience to get my SI down. I also once tried VSED like you recently shared. My heart goes out to you in your difficulties.

 

[qwerty1969]

I have found someone that is willing to help me with my drowning logistics. Now it's whether or not I have the courage to follow through.

 

[missingpeace]

I read through the threads for SN successes and failures, none of them mentioned conscious suffocating, I think the gasping is observed by the onlooker when the person is unconscious (taking final few breaths).

 

[qwerty1969]

I read through the threads for SN successes and failures, none of them mentioned conscious suffocating, I think the gasping is observed by the onlooker when the person is unconscious (taking final few breaths).

Forgive me if I am off the mark here but I think I read where a medical professional claimed that when an individual goes unconscious from SN the individual will still have the sensation that their lungs are filling with fluid.

 

[missingpeace]

Forgive me if I am off the mark here but I think I read where a medical professional claimed that when an individual goes unconscious from SN the individual will still have the sensation that their lungs are filling with fluid.

I'd rather go by the experiences of those who have taken it tbh.. the symptoms that they have mentioned are nausea, vomiting, stomach pain and headache, many blacked out fairly quickly..