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Jellyfish42

Jellyfish42

Member
Aug 23, 2020
82
Dear SS community,

Unfortunately it's time for my bus. I've completed all my preparations and I'm finally ready to ctb today.

It's been a pleasant stay for me here. I've enjoyed reading and partaking in the discussions. Thank you for being a good community and place where discussing suicide isn't taboo.

For those curious as to why: It's a complicated bag of existential and personal problems. My desire to live has been non-existent for way too long. And I refuse to live for the sake of others. Furthermore I've already been through the mental healthcare system and take medications. But even that can only do so much by itself.

My method of choice is SN and I'll probably just take some ibuprofen beforehand. I'll tolerate whatever discomfort comes though I'm hoping it will knock me out before that. I've chosen to do this at a nearby forest to avoid leaving a mess for the public eye.

Anyways, good bye
 
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megafire

megafire

burn it down
Oct 12, 2020
89
Sweet dreams. I hope you manage well.
 
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Rn110bg101

I want to go home
Apr 18, 2019
412
Good night. I hope it'll go smoothly and you'll be at peace quickly.
 
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Deleted member 22624

Deleted member 22624

One foot in the grave
Oct 7, 2020
1,085
I'm sorry it's come to this, I hope you change your mind, but I understand how you must feel - I might do the same. I don't like the SN method but it shows how much you're suffering to choose it… I'm so sorry
 
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TripleA

TripleA

life is a struggle you cannot win
Sep 25, 2020
274
I'm sorry it's come to this, I hope you change your mind, but I understand how you must feel - I might do the same. I don't like the SN method but it shows how much you're suffering to choose it… I'm so sorry
Will you be with us when you drink SN?
 
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Symbiote

Illuminated
Oct 12, 2020
3,099
Never knew you since i'm new here, but hope your final rest is peaceful.
 
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Deleted member 22624

One foot in the grave
Oct 7, 2020
1,085
Will you be with us when you drink SN?
I might not do it for a long time, and it might not be SN that I choose. I will consider the possibility, but I'm a bit of a coward so the risks probably point to no. I could get into trouble, or some how get reported and stopped, it seems it happens here occasionally. I appreciate the feedback left by those who decide to though, for what it's worth, and I think it's a relatively noble philosophy, all things considered. I'm pretty sure I'm going to die very alone, whatever happens
 
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bloomingdark

bloomingdark

Alex
Jan 24, 2019
170
Hi, it is sad to see how your pain has lead you to this, I hope you find relief,have a good journey , don't doubt messaging me if you want to talk with someone
 
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Mistry420

Mistry420

I don’t even like rollercoasters
Feb 11, 2020
60
Sorry for your pain and I hope you find peace xx
 
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KleinerWolf

KleinerWolf

Account Wipe.
Apr 30, 2020
2,700
If you have any second thoughts at any point in the future, please know it's okay to abort.

If not, I wish you peaceful exit.
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,015
I hope you find the peace snd relief you desire, swift travels.
 
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AJ95

AJ95

24/7 sylvia plath
Sep 3, 2020
478
I hope you have a fast and painless journey :heart:
 
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SadJessu

SadJessu

Just tired.
Aug 17, 2020
168
Wishing you a peaceful journey. Rest well.
 
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Jellyfish42

Jellyfish42

Member
Aug 23, 2020
82
Surprised my account is still up, I'll post you guys some updates

I had to opt for a hotel instead, its snowing and cold outside
IMG 20201019 171549

Preparations...
IMG 20201019 171521
 
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Brackenshire

Arcanist
Feb 23, 2020
467
A calm heart and a peaceful journey friend if you decide to stay welcome home
 
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bloodbath

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Sep 4, 2020
31
I wish you good luck!
 
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TheYounger

TheYounger

Aria Math
Jun 7, 2020
140
If you do end up going through with it then hope to see you soon on the other side. Safe travels.
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
Wishing you peace❤️
 
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Deathbydemo

Deathbydemo

Mage
Feb 15, 2020
518
Wishing you a safe journey and eternal peace on the other side. ❤️
 
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Metalhead

Metalhead

Born slippy
Sep 21, 2020
213
See you on the flipside brother, safe travels........
 
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muffin222

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2020
1,187
I'm so sorry it's come to this, but I wish you a peaceful and swift exit out of this cruel world :heart:
 
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GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
Jan 11, 2020
6,726
When you self-ban, it takes 48 hours. You may need to do it again, or ask the mods to do it at a certain time.

If this is your choice to do, then I wish you a peaceful passing, and if there is consciousness after, then infinitely more peace than you experienced in this life. If you remain, I hope you are empowered to have a better life than you have so far.
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
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Jumper Geo

Jumper Geo

Life's a bitch and then you die.
Feb 23, 2020
2,910
Sorry you can't go on, I wish you a fast and painless journey.

Best wishes

Geo
 
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Silver

Silver

The 21st century is when everything changes
Aug 8, 2020
742
Glad you have a warm place to stay. I hope all goes well.
 
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Jellyfish42

Jellyfish42

Member
Aug 23, 2020
82
Hi please let us know what's going on.
I was under the impression that once you make a good bye thread your account gets locked as soon as a mod sees it. For any mods that are reading I request you leave my account open until tommorow morning, thanks.


Anyway 2nd update for you guys:

Put up a sign for the hotel staff on the bathroom door, I hope they're not scarred for life by this: IMG 20201019 182902

Removed the stickers off the SN so it can't be identified and the distributor doesn't get in trouble:
IMG 20201019 182923
 
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rt1989526

Paragon
Aug 2, 2020
935
Where do you put the sign?

I wish you peace and love friend
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
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I was under the impression that once you make a good bye thread your account gets locked as soon as a mod sees it. For any mods that are reading I request you leave my account open until tommorow morning, thanks.


Anyway 2nd update for you guys:

Put up a sign for the hotel staff, I hope they're not scarred for life by this:View attachment 48209

Removed the stickers off the SN so it can't be identified and the distributor doesn't get in trouble:
View attachment 48210
I love how much forethought you've put into this. I think you only interacted with me a few times but I am still sorry your life has reached this point. I wish you safe passage and good luck whatever the outcome!
 
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Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
I'm sorry life hasn't been kinder, @Jellyfish42. Whatever you decide to do, I hope the outcomes will be the best for you. x
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
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Jellyfish love you. :heart:
 
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