Livingvsdying25
Enlightened
- Dec 8, 2019
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I have alot of thoughts today just how my mind feels and all and I dont feel like posting onnmy tumblr as it's all kinda like "man I wanna CTB" feels so.
Creating this thread to just add and whatever.
Currently its almost 8PM where I am. I dont want to spend the night around or near my mom here. Aside from that too I'm kinda bored. I'm also pretty broke tho but with peope it's not that much of a problem tbh.
So I kinda wanna go out and get fucked up but I also feel kinda lazy and content with chilling. The environment sucks but i dont really feel the need to care.
Even if i get caught up in it that's just not how i wanna live. Like i dont want to live needing to leave to find peace it's so tiring(I've done it) & expensive tbh.
So ik debating going out today or not. I wish my mom would just fuck off with the angst tbh.
I dont want to be a hermit in my room nor do I want to be treated like a fucking disease. Sighs.
(Ps. I dont check spelling or anything like that... until much later if even so.)
Also weird withdrawls state with meds so I'm not wigged out but easily scared and mind is kinda a mess. Can keep it together if I need to rn but yeah...
So lowkey kinda stuck here also low key dont mine.
Just hate my mom and her attitude and my whole family. Can burn and rot when I'm gone for all care(savor my brother who actually deserves the care so)
Creating this thread to just add and whatever.
Currently its almost 8PM where I am. I dont want to spend the night around or near my mom here. Aside from that too I'm kinda bored. I'm also pretty broke tho but with peope it's not that much of a problem tbh.
So I kinda wanna go out and get fucked up but I also feel kinda lazy and content with chilling. The environment sucks but i dont really feel the need to care.
Even if i get caught up in it that's just not how i wanna live. Like i dont want to live needing to leave to find peace it's so tiring(I've done it) & expensive tbh.
So ik debating going out today or not. I wish my mom would just fuck off with the angst tbh.
I dont want to be a hermit in my room nor do I want to be treated like a fucking disease. Sighs.
(Ps. I dont check spelling or anything like that... until much later if even so.)
Also weird withdrawls state with meds so I'm not wigged out but easily scared and mind is kinda a mess. Can keep it together if I need to rn but yeah...
So lowkey kinda stuck here also low key dont mine.
Just hate my mom and her attitude and my whole family. Can burn and rot when I'm gone for all care(savor my brother who actually deserves the care so)
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