Venting Thoughts.

[spaceyman]

it's around midnight here, so i decided to vent about stuff in my life.


i hate how i am unable to be creative.
i hate how i have no ambitions for the future.
i hate how i feel insecure about my relationships.
i hate how i isolate myself from my family.
i hate how my most loved hobbies turned into torturous chores.
i hate how i become so blue very suddenly.
i hate how i never got to experience true childhood.
i hate how i am ignoring my schoolwork.
i hate how i try to be a perfectionist and fail miserably.
i hate how i try to like certain things but end up disliking everything in the end.
i hate how i misunderstand simple stuff.
i hate how my thoughts continue contradicting each other.
i hate how i can not enjoy life.
i hate how i am being lazy these past few years.

i just hate myself.

 

[puppet_nihilist]

to all that.

I have nothing to add, same here

 

[spaceyman]

I actually passed out while writing this, so that's why this was posted in the morning- Woo.

 

[Georg]

You sound like an average teenager to me

 

[SamTam33]

Can we make this the "I hate..." thread?

I hate that I want what's best for everyone, but no one wants what's best for me.
I hate my father... and his father... and his mother.
I hate that I quit my job.
I hate that I won't stop drinking.
I hate that I can't sleep.
I hate that I won't just jump and get it over with.
I hate 'witty banter' on morning news programs.
I hate that I'm so judgemental.
I hate job interviews that start with, "So tell me about yourself."
Um, let's see. I'd rather be dead than on this Zoom meeting with you. No seriously. I'd rather be dead.
I hate waking up.
I hate stop lights.
I hate that I can remember all the bad things that happened to me.
I hate that I can annihilate decades long relationships with a few choice words.
I hate my hateful mouth.
I hate the sound of emergency sirens.
I hate sales tax.
I hate how I can't NOT tell the truth.
I hate that people only remember the bad things I've said or done.
I hate that absolutely no one knows my heart.

And I hate me too.

 

[spaceyman]

You sound like an average teenager to me

Because I am, indeed

Abnormally normal, perhaps-?

 

[puppet_nihilist]

Can we make this the "I hate..." thread?

I hate that I want what's best for everyone, but no one wants what's best for me.
I hate my father... and his father... and his mother.
I hate that I quit my job.
I hate that I won't stop drinking.
I hate that I can't sleep.
I hate that I won't just jump and get it over with.
I hate 'witty banter' on morning news programs.
I hate that I'm so judgemental.
I hate job interviews that start with, "So tell me about yourself."
Um, let's see. I'd rather be dead than on this Zoom meeting with you. No seriously. I'd rather be dead.
I hate waking up.
I hate stop lights.
I hate that I can remember all the bad things that happened to me.
I hate that I can annihilate decades long relationships with a few choice words.
I hate my hateful mouth.
I hate the sound of emergency sirens.
I hate sales tax.
I hate how I can't NOT tell the truth.
I hate that people only remember the bad things I've said or done.
I hate that absolutely no one knows my heart.

And I hate me too.

I think this suggestion is good. Sometimes I want to complain about stuff about me. Better to make this a thing. I hate...


I hate waking up
I hate my conflicting thoughts, actions, attitudes
I hate that I can't find an easy method out
I hate that I am all I think about
I hate being given any attention, please leave me in the background
I hate that I sometimes WANT attention
I hate that I am a people pleaser
I hate that I am fake
I hate that I have to struggle to be normal
I hate my anxiety
I hate not wanting to get rid of my anxiety
I hate that I can't blame anything or anyone for my problems
I hate that I can't commit suicide without causing suffering for my family
I hate that my circumstances made me my parent's elderly care plan
I hate that I am evil and disgusting
I hate that I'm not evil enough to kill myself and stop wanting to live for my family's sake
I hate that I know it doesn't matter but still act like there's hope everyday
I hate not being able to control my emotions, my thoughts, my words