
yeaimhere13
why me?
- Sep 14, 2023
- 61
alright so due to recent events in my life, ive completely lost any sense of self i still had. i am not planning to CTB right now. i don't think im ready yet. but i was wondering if there is anything I can do to sort of separate myself from.. well myself! here is my idea:
i still live with my parents soooo im thinking of completely redoing my bedroom. and when i say "redo" i mean take everything off the walls, pull down any decorations, get rid of anything that is not necessary to my existence right now, change my bedding to something simple and clean looking, maybe even change my clothes and start wearing a uniform every day so i don't have to spend time figuring out what i want to wear (plus i could get rid of my clothes). id also like to get off socials, delete any accounts/apps that arent necessary, distance from people that i talk to regularly, etc.
i would do this gradually btw not all at once
i think doing this would help me cut off ties to my identity. it's worth a try at least.
im so fucking tired of grasping at paper straws. spending hours looking through old photo albums and memory boxes. constantly seeking reassurance from others. wasting the days away crying and bitching about my life. i know there is an end for me, but i'm not there yet. i just need something to help me hold on a bit longer. i fucking hate "me", so why not get rid of her?
i still live with my parents soooo im thinking of completely redoing my bedroom. and when i say "redo" i mean take everything off the walls, pull down any decorations, get rid of anything that is not necessary to my existence right now, change my bedding to something simple and clean looking, maybe even change my clothes and start wearing a uniform every day so i don't have to spend time figuring out what i want to wear (plus i could get rid of my clothes). id also like to get off socials, delete any accounts/apps that arent necessary, distance from people that i talk to regularly, etc.
i would do this gradually btw not all at once
i think doing this would help me cut off ties to my identity. it's worth a try at least.
im so fucking tired of grasping at paper straws. spending hours looking through old photo albums and memory boxes. constantly seeking reassurance from others. wasting the days away crying and bitching about my life. i know there is an end for me, but i'm not there yet. i just need something to help me hold on a bit longer. i fucking hate "me", so why not get rid of her?
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