• Hey Guest,

    As you know, censorship around the world has been ramping up at an alarming pace. The UK and OFCOM has singled out this community and have been focusing its censorship efforts here. It takes a good amount of resources to maintain the infrastructure for our community and to resist this censorship. We would appreciate any and all donations.

    Bitcoin Address (BTC): 39deg9i6Zp1GdrwyKkqZU6rAbsEspvLBJt

    Ethereum (ETH): 0xd799aF8E2e5cEd14cdb344e6D6A9f18011B79BE9

    Monero (XMR): 49tuJbzxwVPUhhDjzz6H222Kh8baKe6rDEsXgE617DVSDD8UKNaXvKNU8dEVRTAFH9Av8gKkn4jDzVGF25snJgNfUfKKNC8

  • Security update: At around 2:28AM EST, the site was labeled as malicious by Google erroneously, causing users to get a "Dangerous site" warning in most browsers. It appears that this was done by mistake and has been reversed by Google. It may take a few hours for you to stop seeing those warnings.

    If you're still getting these warnings, please let a member of staff know.
Imhopeless

Imhopeless

Member
Jul 24, 2023
18
I hate Christmas, it's the most humiliating day of the year for me. I dont have money to give amazing gifts nor am I skilled enough to make something myself that doesn't look like shit. Its humiliating to receive gifts while I cant give something even remotely valuable.

What are your thoughts on Christmas? Do you enjoy it or is it just another day in the year for you?
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: SMmetalhead36, Forever Sleep, Praestat_Mori and 1 other person
gloomurai

gloomurai

"How Could I Have Changed?"
Dec 22, 2024
10
I used to enjoy Christmas but similar to any holiday I have memories on that day that make me hate it. Any seemingly happy day will always turn out awful. This morning is already rough. It's just another day to me.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: Praestat_Mori
P

Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,711
You are valuable! :heart:

I enjoyed Christmas when I was young, now it's pretty much like any other day of the year but it remains a special day/time of the year although I'm not celebrating.
 
  • Love
Reactions: pointblank
S

SMmetalhead36

Ready to have my forever date with suicide
Oct 6, 2023
320
I'll be glad when it's over, I'm sick of hearing about it. It's just another day to me. People are so ungrateful during this time.
 
  • Like
Reactions: divinemistress36
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
39,266
It's just suffering, existing to me will always be nothing but unnecessary pointless suffering and cruelty no matter what, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all and I was forced to suffer as a result. To me existing truly is just waiting to die with no limit as to how much agony one can feel as long as they are enslaved in this cruel, torturous existence, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the pain of existing and I find existence to be deeply undesirable in every way possible.

I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this at all, to me human existence truly is the most cruel, futile burden and I suffer so much from how painless death is denied for me with unnecessary suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead. Existence itself is the problem to me and it's a problem that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I've never had any interest in suffering in this horrific world where there is all this terrible cruelty rather I just wish for the peace of eternal sleep where all is finally gone.
 
czzod

czzod

on and off
Dec 23, 2024
9
it's my favorite holiday which isn't really saying much because i don't like any other holidays. when i was a kid i used to love it so much, i remember sitting in my bed anxious for the next day but now it's just kinda voided? i don't know how to explain it. it doesn't feel the same and the holiday makes me super depressed because i'm so upset when i'm "supposed to be" happy.

it gets particularly rough when buying gifts because i always get worried about whether or not the people i buy for will like them. i also normally don't get many which is partially my fault because i never give people a list but now that i'm older i'm expected to buy gifts for others. overall i'm kinda meh on it. i mostly like watching my siblings open their gifts but everything else makes me anxious
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: findsometime, NoPoint2Life and EternalShore
LastLoveSong

LastLoveSong

attention seeker
Oct 18, 2023
101
every holiday is just another day for me, even my birthday
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: SMmetalhead36 and Namelesa
Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,174
Well, I loved it as a kid with all the presents and stuff, but it's really meant as a time to celebrate Jesus's birthday.

Jesus Christ Love GIF by Come Unto Christ North Bay

So for that reason alone, I celebrate! Happy Birthday Jesus!
 
  • Like
Reactions: pointblank
pointblank

pointblank

OTW to CTB
Dec 12, 2024
160
I'd say I enjoy it, yes. It's a festive mood and the atmosphere is jolly and vibrant. I don't "celebrate" it though.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Lost Magic
ForgottenAgain

ForgottenAgain

On the rollercoaster of sadness
Oct 17, 2023
1,017
It became a bit easier to endure from the past 2 years. I think the accumulation of years when I spent Christmas alone finally got to the point when I feel more empty towards it rather than sad. I tried to accept I have no real family and sometimes that works.

I make a traditional Christmas meal and that's the most I do. Food is a big part of my culture and I don't want to lose that. Now currently waiting for the food to heat up.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Lost Magic
bleepbloopbleep

bleepbloopbleep

Mr. Worldwide
Dec 23, 2024
20
I used to love Christmas as a kid.

Now it just feels empty and lonely. But that's how I feel about the winter times in general honestly.
 
dontwakemeup

dontwakemeup

Specialist
Nov 11, 2024
368
I wish people would be cognizant and aware that everyone doesn't have a perfect family or even a mother or father! I'm happy that others can enjoy the holidays and feel at liberty to share every second and moment of their wonderful holiday without you even asking. Listening isn't hard, but what is difficult when they spent 15 minutes or so rambling on and ask you how was your Xmas? I always lie and make up a wonderful story to hurry and get it over with!

Why do I have to lie to fit in? I wish people would respect others and ask would they like to discuss their Xmas. It's awkward and makes me uncomfortable. Luckily, I'm off work today and only have to lie tomorrow, but it will be less pressure.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: ForgottenAgain
ForgottenAgain

ForgottenAgain

On the rollercoaster of sadness
Oct 17, 2023
1,017
I wish people would be cognizant and aware that everyone doesn't have a perfect family or even a mother or father! I'm happy that others can enjoy the holidays and feel at liberty to share every second and moment of their wonderful holiday without you even asking. Listening isn't hard, but what is difficult when they spent 15 minutes or so rambling on and ask you how was your Xmas? I always lie and make up a wonderful story to hurry and get it over with!

Why do I have to lie to fit in? I wish people would respect others and ask would they like to discuss their Xmas. It's awkward and makes me uncomfortable. Luckily, I'm off work today and only have to lie tomorrow, but it will be less pressure.
That's so sad...I started doing the same, just making up some short story so people move on to another topic of conversation, but it just makes me feel even worse. I wish it wasn't so ingrained. At work when they asked me if I was going back home for Christmas I said no, and they immediately replied "oh but why not, Christmas is a time to be with family". Well, maybe I don't have that good of a family and that's none of your business?
I don't need people telling me the obvious. I should have lied there but I was too tired that day.

I'm sorry you feel the need to lie too.
 
bleeding_heart_show

bleeding_heart_show

Member
Dec 23, 2023
53
I like your profile picture. Do you have a favorite vocaloid song?

On to the topic; since my teenage years I have had complex feelings regarding christmas.

The season makes me feel almost normal, but once it is over I feel more alienated than ever.

I struggle to experience empathy or show that I care for others, but I believe that I am capable of both in some capacity.
 

Similar threads

mattoman
Replies
37
Views
611
Offtopic
Privateer2368
P
Mx_Pathetic
Replies
0
Views
81
Offtopic
Mx_Pathetic
Mx_Pathetic
Yume Nikki
Replies
17
Views
358
Suicide Discussion
RiverOfLife
R