Discussion Thoughts about smoking crack before ctb so that my survival instinct is non existent?

[SanctionedSquad]

Hi, I plan to ctb by inert gas in a hotel.
A problem I have is that I have a survival instinct, however whenever I have had a bad trip or comedown from a drug I was more suicidal than normal and I think if I would have had an scba setup near me I would have had used it directly.

So my idea is to smoke some crack before ctb for two reasons:
1. So that I feel really happy before death, many people say that crack is one of the most euphoric feelings besides iv cocaine.
2. The Comedown is described as one of the worst, many say that it is even worse than from a high mdma dosage, then I wouldn't want to live at all.

The problem I see with that is that while high on crack I can't think rational anymore and do some dumb shit like breaking the cylinder or going crazy or wanting to experience that high again or some shit.
The alternative to that would be to take a benzo cause I would have less inhibitions to kill myself, but then I wouldn't feel good before ctb and I would maybe be too dumb to do it.

 

[strawberryjampan]

I don't think you know what you're going on about. You aren't going to get much of a heavy comedown if you aren't a chronic user with crack, in the experience of me and manya people I've met who smoke it on occasion as a party drug. It'll definitely make you feel euphoric though, especially if uppers are your cup of tea.

 

[SanctionedSquad]

I don't think you know what you're going on about. You aren't going to get much of a heavy comedown if you aren't a chronic user with crack, in the experience of me and manya people I've met who smoke it on occasion as a party drug. It'll definitely make you feel euphoric though, especially if uppers are your cup of tea.

Which drug has the worst comedown in your opinion?
I hate mdma comedowns but I never tried other stimulants.

 

[strawberryjampan]

Which drug has the worst comedown in your opinion?
I hate mdma comedowns but I never tried other stimulants.

opiates will leave you feeling like a zombie and horrendously sick for in some cases 10days+, so just those
for stimmies, prob meth just cause you go days w/o sleeping so you go zombie mode in a different way

 

[LittleJem]

crack does make you euphoric. I have only smoked it properly once. When it wore off I was aware of my normal level of depression: I didn't have a come down.

If you want to feel good before CTB snorting cocaine is a better option in a hotel room.

How does alcohol make you feel OP?

 

[SanctionedSquad]

opiates will leave you feeling like a zombie and horrendously sick for in some cases 10days+, so just those
for stimmies, prob meth just cause you go days w/o sleeping so you go zombie mode in a different way

For opiates I would have to use them more than once in a week to have a withdrawal.
Meth is too long and I never took that before.

If you want to feel good before CTB snorting cocaine is a better option in a hotel room.

It would just be less euphoric.
My favorite drug is heroin but then I would just sleep after some time and my plan wouldn't work.

How does alcohol make you feel OP?

Alcohol is very boring in my opinion.

 

[NorthernMonkey]

If you smoke crack you aren't going to want to die. You will want to live so you can smoke more crack. Ecstasy has a pretty hard comedown if you take enough.

 

[SanctionedSquad]

I think taking a bit of xanax is a better idea to loose my inhibitions

 

[lebrodude]

I think benzodiazepines would be more ideal tbh, though I don't know too much about crack, won't it just make you excitable ?

 

[SanctionedSquad]

I want to get as depressed as possible to have a low survival instinct.
I am usually the most depressed after waking up.