dopaminenthusiast
i dream of dying in my dreams
- May 4, 2024
- 26
I've been thinking lately about death, but more about the decision followed by the act of ending your life.
The reasons why i choose to end my life are far away the problems i actually have (mental health issues, economical problems, familiar, etc, you get the idea). And these are my thoughts about the world we live in with the people we live with. It's all horrible.
I'm not saying every people alive is a bad person, i don't really think there are either good or bad people (we're all in between) and I'm not denying all the pretty things in the world, even the small ones. But don't you ever think about the shit things there are happening all around the world? and don't you get anxious about all the shit that doesn't even happened yet? and doesn't it gets really frustrating when you stopped worrying about something that another thing, just as awful as the last one, happens? i bet you can read about catastrophes, wars, crimes and just hate in general for a entire day long.
In conclusion, I'm not trying to convince anyone to kill themselves, but I can't stop myself from thinking, why wouldn't they? I mean, it's something amazing to have a reason to wake up everyday, but why pro-life people don't think about OUR reasons?
Everywhere i look at, there is only hate and judgement toward us, towards the people who decided not to keep living. And I can't understand why.
I'm a psych student, I find the human being very interesting and I'm passionate about studying the human behavior. I'm sure there's a reason behind everything. I'm also a suicidal person who tries to advocate for the right to die we all have.
I just thought it would be incredible to get my degree and use it to fight for us, for our right to choose if we want to keep going or not, and try to find a way to die peacefully like we all want without having to dig into the dark web or something just to buy Nembutal.
I know I'm just daydreaming here, I won't live to achieve any of that. But the idea of having something worth living for it's nice. I hope someday, someone out there can be brave enough to be our voice, because idk about you but I'm tired of feeling ignored, judged or even criminalized for my thoughts, my opinions.
In my country about 9 people commit suicide per day, but you can't even pronounce the word without being left apart (in the best case, ignored).
Anyways, I'm just venting i think, but I'd like to hear your thoughts about this. I'm sorry if any of this sounded silly, I promise I make more sense in my native language.
The reasons why i choose to end my life are far away the problems i actually have (mental health issues, economical problems, familiar, etc, you get the idea). And these are my thoughts about the world we live in with the people we live with. It's all horrible.
I'm not saying every people alive is a bad person, i don't really think there are either good or bad people (we're all in between) and I'm not denying all the pretty things in the world, even the small ones. But don't you ever think about the shit things there are happening all around the world? and don't you get anxious about all the shit that doesn't even happened yet? and doesn't it gets really frustrating when you stopped worrying about something that another thing, just as awful as the last one, happens? i bet you can read about catastrophes, wars, crimes and just hate in general for a entire day long.
In conclusion, I'm not trying to convince anyone to kill themselves, but I can't stop myself from thinking, why wouldn't they? I mean, it's something amazing to have a reason to wake up everyday, but why pro-life people don't think about OUR reasons?
Everywhere i look at, there is only hate and judgement toward us, towards the people who decided not to keep living. And I can't understand why.
I'm a psych student, I find the human being very interesting and I'm passionate about studying the human behavior. I'm sure there's a reason behind everything. I'm also a suicidal person who tries to advocate for the right to die we all have.
I just thought it would be incredible to get my degree and use it to fight for us, for our right to choose if we want to keep going or not, and try to find a way to die peacefully like we all want without having to dig into the dark web or something just to buy Nembutal.
I know I'm just daydreaming here, I won't live to achieve any of that. But the idea of having something worth living for it's nice. I hope someday, someone out there can be brave enough to be our voice, because idk about you but I'm tired of feeling ignored, judged or even criminalized for my thoughts, my opinions.
In my country about 9 people commit suicide per day, but you can't even pronounce the word without being left apart (in the best case, ignored).
Anyways, I'm just venting i think, but I'd like to hear your thoughts about this. I'm sorry if any of this sounded silly, I promise I make more sense in my native language.