Venting Thought we lost SS for a minute there.

[almaranthine]

For a few hours the site was down and I was full of anxiety, thinking the worst. I'm just so happy that I can log back in and interact with you all here. Aside from my mom, and two uncles there is literally no one that I interact with irl. I don't have any friends to vent to or converse with. I live a very isolated, sad life. This site is so much more than what the pro-life people attacking it think. This is a place where so many people can find support, express their sadness, their frustration with circumstances in life, even find online friends to talk with. Ffs there is an entire sub-forum called RECOVERY that the people trying to tear this site down completely overlook and dismiss. There is no other place like this on the internet. No solace to be found on social media, or even sites like Reddit any longer. You are not allowed to exercise your free will, your right of free speech anywhere without being pathologized, diminished to simply being "mentally ill" and requiring correction. There are people out there that consider us 'murderers' for 'assisting' in the deaths of others. Aside from people getting scammed every so often (the site aiming to ban and remove those accounts once it is known) and people being tricked by fake accounts into divulging information about sources (by either law enforcement or individuals on a crusade then reporting to law enforcement) people are not being taken advantage of by this site simply existing. Someone *chooses* to google and find this place on their own accord... I just don't understand why these angry people have to demonize us this way. I am positive that this site has HELPED so many people, whether aiding their road to recovery by giving them a safe space to interact and get advice from others in a similar place mentally, or educating them on poor methods that would have a huge likelihood of harming them. I am so grateful for this space and I wish the critics and attackers could see the good that this forum does.

 

[MidnightDream]

Yeah, I felt the same way. Sent myself down a twitter rabbit hole in the meantime which certainly didn't help much. Admin has confirmed that everything's fine so I assume the site is as safe as it can be for now, but it's very scary to consider what might happen to us all without this resource.

 

[almaranthine]

Yeah, I felt the same way. Sent myself down a twitter rabbit hole in the meantime which certainly didn't help much. Admin has confirmed that everything's fine so I assume the site is as safe as it can be for now, but it's very scary to consider what might happen to us all without this resource.

Yep, I kept checking Twitter obsessively as well and had flashbacks to how devastated I was years ago when the OG subreddit was deleted. I'm just so relieved as of right now that everything is ok on the technical end. I have literally no other space to express myself and get genuine advice. Mom is religious so Jesus is the answer to virtually every problem and negative feeling. My uncles are very indifferent to the struggles of others and do not empathize—very much having the boomer "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" mentality.

 

[gomenasai]

Me too. I got so scared. Checked if the website was working for like a hundred times.

 

[almaranthine]

Me too. I got so scared. Checked if the website was working for like a hundred times.

Same here. I was starting to lose it so I went out to get a cup of coffee and some smokes to distract myself. The stress was unreal. This website has essentially kept me going for years, this year in particular.

 

[gomenasai]

Yes... This website is an invaluable source of information to me and the community that thinks alike regarding these things can also have a positive impact on many of us, I'm sure.
So losing all that would be terrible

 

[Smart No More]

I used to get a bit worries when the site went offline intermittently but I'm used to it now and less concerned. There's options so don't worry too much about being cut off completely and being left afloat.

You can check twitter whwn the sites down. If there's ever a need I think it would be noted there. On the SS account I mean.

Also there's a Telegram group I think. I think you can send @RainAndSadness and/or maybe the other mods for an invite link to the group. Not sure if it's searchable. Maybe.

I read that if you turn email notifications on for the forum there's usually notifications about maintenance down time too. I don't have it on because I don't want to receive emails for privacy reasons but it's an option if anyone wants to use it.

TBF OP has been a member longer than me I think but figured I'd share this for anyone who doesn't already know.

 

[almaranthine]

I used to get a bit worries when the site went offline intermittently but I'm used to it now and less concerned. There's options so don't worry too much about being cut off completely and being left afloat.

You can check twitter whwn the sites down. If there's ever a need I think it would be noted there. On the SS account I mean.

Also there's a Telegram group I think. I think you can send @RainAndSadness and/or maybe the other mods for an invite link to the group. Not sure if it's searchable. Maybe.

I read that if you turn email notifications on for the forum there's usually notifications about maintenance down time too. I don't have it on because I don't want to receive emails for privacy reasons but it's an option if anyone wants to use it.

TBF OP has been a member longer than me I think but figured I'd share this for anyone who doesn't already know.

Hey thank you for sharing this info! I was aware of the Twitter but didn't know about the Telegram group (honestly dk what that platform is I will have to check it out). I was going to ask if anyone knew of any backup options related to this forum in case something happens, so this is good to know. I did the same thing with the emails.

 

[looseye]

Got me thinking. I deleted all my social media accounts except this one and haven't had any other place to express myself lately. SS is the only place where I can truly speak my mind and the only non-work environment where I care about what others have to say. Would've been really damn depressing if this site had actually gone down. I'm glad it was just for a few hours <3

 

[almaranthine]

Got me thinking. I deleted all my social media accounts except this one and haven't had any other place to express myself lately. SS is the only place where I can truly speak my mind and the only non-work environment where I care about what others have to say. Would've been really damn depressing if this site had actually gone down. I'm glad it was just for a few hours <3

Yep, I removed myself from pretty much all social media too. I still have a Facebook that isn't under my real name, but I don't use it to try to connect with people and rarely even log into it. It just sort of vaguely exists but has no purpose other than following a few artists, comics, and meme pages. Trying to connect with people on normal social media just felt futile and empty, only made me more depressed. It seems like once you express anything perceivably "negative" people don't want to keep interacting. I could never imagine saying and expressing what I have typed into this site to any human I've psychically met in my life.

 

[Smart No More]

Same, I don't use socials either. That info is too permanent and easybto extrapolate data from. If I'm not making money of existing then neither is anyone else lol. Such a grimy world/society we have.


I found the SS telegram group btw. There's two. One for announcements and one for chat. You have to apply to join the chat one.

Oh and telegram is just an app. It's kind of likw thw sweet spot between whatsapp and reddit. You can actually search groups/chats to look at. Unlike WhatsApp. Just make sure to look over the privacy settings. You can use any name you like and nobody from your contancts can see your groups unless they're in them too. It would actually be good to start a thread here somewhere, explaining the intricacies of privacy and settings for telegram. It's user friendly so not complicated but obviously always important to be clued up and careful as possible.

 

[Maudlin]

I was stuck doomscrolling through news and current events for a few hours, there.

Boy, that did wonders for my mental outlook.

I was almost to the point where I thought I might not off myself, that I'm not as bad off as so many others on here, that it was just my self pity more than the physical pain that was getting in my way...

Then I thought the site collapsed.

I thought of all the people I interacted with, here.
How many would just say "fuck it" and go.
I wanted to join them.

I read how much more treacherous the world has become, in the time I've been here ignoring it. How much the world wants me and people like me dead.

But then, I could log on... and I realized so much of what I thought I was just inflating, in my own mind. This pain, this self pity, it really skews my perception of everything.

I'm glad I'm full of shit. I'm glad I'm able to notice it... perhaps some day I'll be able to think my way through it.
I'm glad this site, and everyone on it, is here.

Thank you all.

 

[almaranthine]

Same, I don't use socials either. That info is too permanent and easybto extrapolate data from. If I'm not making money of existing then neither is anyone else lol. Such a grimy world/society we have.


I found the SS telegram group btw. There's two. One for announcements and one for chat. You have to apply to join the chat one.

Oh and telegram is just an app. It's kind of likw thw sweet spot between whatsapp and reddit. You can actually search groups/chats to look at. Unlike WhatsApp. Just make sure to look over the privacy settings. You can use any name you like and nobody from your contancts can see your groups unless they're in them too. It would actually be good to start a thread here somewhere, explaining the intricacies of privacy and settings for telegram. It's user friendly so not complicated but obviously always important to be clued up and careful as possible.

I would definitely be interested in learning about how to retain privacy using the app and what their specific guidelines are as far as what's allowed to be explicitly discussed, what the general terms of service are and what not.

 

[makethepainstop]

For a few hours the site was down and I was full of anxiety, thinking the worst. I'm just so happy that I can log back in and interact with you all here. Aside from my mom, and two uncles there is literally no one that I interact with irl. I don't have any friends to vent to or converse with. I live a very isolated, sad life. This site is so much more than what the pro-life people attacking it think. This is a place where so many people can find support, express their sadness, their frustration with circumstances in life, even find online friends to talk with. Ffs there is an entire sub-forum called RECOVERY that the people trying to tear this site down completely overlook and dismiss. There is no other place like this on the internet. No solace to be found on social media, or even sites like Reddit any longer. You are not allowed to exercise your free will, your right of free speech anywhere without being pathologized, diminished to simply being "mentally ill" and requiring correction. There are people out there that consider us 'murderers' for 'assisting' in the deaths of others. Aside from people getting scammed every so often (the site aiming to ban and remove those accounts once it is known) and people being tricked by fake accounts into divulging information about sources (by either law enforcement or individuals on a crusade then reporting to law enforcement) people are not being taken advantage of by this site simply existing. Someone *chooses* to google and find this place on their own accord... I just don't understand why these angry people have to demonize us this way. I am positive that this site has HELPED so many people, whether aiding their road to recovery by giving them a safe space to interact and get advice from others in a similar place mentally, or educating them on poor methods that would have a huge likelihood of harming them. I am so grateful for this space and I wish the critics and attackers could see the good that this forum does. thanks

When I sneakily logged on at work,(not to worry, I have free rein to delete any incriminating data), I saw that ss was down! I'm glad none of you here could hear the earthy and most colorful language I was using. I really thought those damn pro- life retards had actually succeeded in shutting us down. When I logged in hours later, I cannot describe my joy and delight, that we are still up and running! YES! God bless each and everyone here, much love to all.

 

[universe]

I don't know if I'm the only one but this kind of SS failure/malfunction is very common for me. The first time I immediately thought of the pro-lifers, but now I imagine it's just a small technical problem. It's true that it's always a little stressful, especially given the news, the restriction on the SN, it doesn't bode well.
Luckily SS still works

 

[almaranthine]

I don't know if I'm the only one but this kind of SS failure/malfunction is very common for me. The first time I immediately thought of the pro-lifers, but now I imagine it's just a small technical problem. It's true that it's always a little stressful, especially given the news, the restriction on the SN, it doesn't bode well.
Luckily SS still works

Oddly enough, I've never run into this problem before so it really freaked me out. I had no idea it was a relatively normal occurrence every so often. Even so, it's definitely stressful just sitting there refreshing over and over, fingers crossed that it's just a "small technical problem" and not the end of days

 

[FuneralCry]

This website has went down many times before, if it's gone for a bit then I don't personally have too much of a problem with it. Life is very unpredictable and uncertain after all, and what we once had can easily just be taken away. That is just the way that life is, but I do believe that there will always be suicide method information somewhere on the internet no matter what as there will never stop being suicidal people.

But yes of course suicide should be respected as an option, it's our right to leave this world at a time of our own choosing. Those people just want to force others to suffer and prolong their misery, the truth is that sometimes to die is more preferable than being here and why should they have any say in our personal decisions as they are not living our lives. If the option of suicide is taken away then existence is nothing more than a prison, I mean even the pro lifers could become suicidal, what if they ended up with some horrible disease that caused extreme suffering. And I bet that they would likely want a peaceful exit.

 

[jodes2]

Yay, go SS