Those who are beyond the point of being able to pinpoint one reason or two for why they want to CTB

[Suicideisnirvana]

What do you answer someone trustworthy or how do you respond even beging to respond to an anymous question about the specific reason ?

I think there are many of us who are waaaaay beyond the point where we can point to any specific reason, there may have been a time before the deluge where a zone of fracture could have been delineated, but a torrential rain have submerged that zone and made it all unhabitable. Life is exactly like driving a bicycle in a slope, if you don't move forward you accelerate downward,, demotivation depression and succession of deceptions/traumas just accumulate, and as your energy is drained at the same time, you reach the "enviable" position where you have more daunting challenges to overcome as you have less strength, opportunities, and energy to overcome them. It's like if exams and homeworks got harder and lenghtier whenever you got bad grades, life is like this. At that moment, the only reason you can come up with i think is "Life"

 

[cocodecomedy]

Life is exactly like driving a bicycle in a slope, if you don't move forward you accelerate downward,, demotivation depression and succession of deceptions/traumas just accumulate, and as your energy is drained at the same time, you reach the "enviable" position where you have more daunting challenges to overcome as you have less strength, opportunities, and energy to overcome them. It's like if exams and homeworks got harder and lenghtier whenever you got bad grades, life is like this.

Thank you for putting this feeling of hopelessness and frustration into words. Seriously thank you, I feel so seen and understood.

 

[MeltingHeart]

So true.

 

[Fragile]

i usually answer with vague stuff like "my life is just not great" or "i don't want to bother you with my soap opera"

simply because i have so many issues that have no solution and each one is on the same level, and mostly because people always give me the same bullshit, yes i know that there are people who have it worse in some areas and are quadriplegic, yes i know that every 60 seconds a minute goes by in africa, that doesn't make me feel any better, thanks for downplaying my suffering so much.

i'm just sick of it, not worth trying to open up anymore to people in my life. at least i can vent out here where people are more understanding.

 

[CrushedHopes]

I know the exact reason for wanting to CTB - to spare myself the humiliation as well as not being able to reverse the damage I've done. Well, when I am gone, I hope everyone's happy that I am no longer around to cause trouble. I would liked to keep trying, but it's not doable this time. It's just impossible.

 

[OreoWellington]

My two basic answers that would cover it all is "Everything and everyone."

 

[Taki]

What do you answer someone trustworthy or how do you respond even beging to respond to an anymous question about the specific reason ?

I think there are many of us who are waaaaay beyond the point where we can point to any specific reason, there may have been a time before the deluge where a zone of fracture could have been delineated, but a torrential rain have submerged that zone and made it all unhabitable. Life is exactly like driving a bicycle in a slope, if you don't move forward you accelerate downward,, demotivation depression and succession of deceptions/traumas just accumulate, and as your energy is drained at the same time, you reach the "enviable" position where you have more daunting challenges to overcome as you have less strength, opportunities, and energy to overcome them. It's like if exams and homeworks got harder and lenghtier whenever you got bad grades, life is like this. At that moment, the only reason you can come up with i think is "Life"

Well said.

 

[TearyEyedQueen]

I usually say regret and isolation because the real thing requires an explanation in the shape of a mini soap opera.
Most people in real life don't understand anyway, not even therapists.