Venting This world is hell

[Squiddy]

I was reorganizing shelves today and due to my ADHD again, I ended up missing the dish soap in the cereal aisle and one of my supervisors got mad at me and asked me if this is what reorganizing the shelves is and then asked me how I could miss it. Then I dropped and broke about 2 things for the millionth time and I'm just done. If they knew how many things I've accidentally broke or dropped, they would fire me, but I'll probably get fired anyways for slowness and when that happens, I might be done because I've had enough suffering and I don't think I can get another job with my ADHD, cognitive issues and other disorders. I wanted to start screaming and crying in the store, but held it in. I'm tired and I feel like I'm losing my sanity

 

[Rational man]

Getting fired might be a blessing. Seriously, does your boss believe in a perfect world. Your boss is deflecting misery on other people, probably got relationship, family and control issues. So its not about you. Look forward to your moving on to a better position if it happens.Hazard a guess, your boss is a woman, no offence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are going through this. That sounds really stressful and frustrating and I know that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I agree that this world is hell, there is so many things that can potentially go wrong in life and there is no limit as to how bad things can get. I wish you the best.

 

[rationaltake]

I understand. I have a dissociative disorder and OCD plus other issues. When I was working in a library it got so bad that I couldn't manage to tidy the shelves. I kept losing my place and going over and over things. I couldn't remember how to use the library computer system.

It's awful to feel incompetent when it's not your fault. You're battling so many things it's an achievement just to turn up. I understand how it can drive you to despair.

This might not be possible but I'm wondering if they have any provision for employees with disabilities. Do they know about your conditions?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

This might not be possible but I'm wondering if they have any provision for employees with disabilities. Do they know about your conditions?

I would not take them to be very sympathetic judging by everything squiddy has mentioned about them on here.

 

[rationaltake]

I would not take them to be very sympathetic judging by everything squiddy has mentioned about them on here.

I get what you mean. But you never know. In my country I got "reasonable adjustments" for disability due to equality legislation. They were scared of a law suit.

But often when you most need to fight is when you are least able to do it.

I know about disability legislation in my own country.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

I was reorganizing shelves today and due to my ADHD again, I ended up missing the dish soap in the cereal aisle and one of my supervisors got mad at me and asked me if this is what reorganizing the shelves is and then asked me how I could miss it. Then I dropped and broke about 2 things for the millionth time and I'm just done. If they knew how many things I've accidentally broke or dropped, they would fire me, but I'll probably get fired anyways for slowness and when that happens, I might be done because I've had enough suffering and I don't think I can get another job with my ADHD, cognitive issues and other disorders. I wanted to start screaming and crying in the store, but held it in. I'm tired and I feel like I'm losing my sanity

Can you go on full time benefits and just enjoy your life, not having to get up early every day? Benefits are lovely if you can get them. Fake some chronic pain too and get monthly tramadol prescription to enjoy with your coffee every morning with breakfast news, then have a nap in the afternoon with diagnosis murder on the tv. Giving up is lovely if they just give you money and drugs and leave you alone!

 

[Squiddy]

Getting fired might be a blessing. Seriously, does your boss believe in a perfect world. Your boss is deflecting misery on other people, probably got relationship, family and control issues. So its not about you. Look forward to your moving on to a better position if it happens.Hazard a guess, your boss is a woman, no offence.

Idk if I can even find a better position with my cognitive issues. I tried the electronics position and auto position and I didn't do well because I have a hard time explaining my thoughts verbally and one customer even said it appeared that I was high when I wasn't :(

I understand. I have a dissociative disorder and OCD plus other issues. When I was working in a library it got so bad that I couldn't manage to tidy the shelves. I kept losing my place and going over and over things. I couldn't remember how to use the library computer system.

It's awful to feel incompetent when it's not your fault. You're battling so many things it's an achievement just to turn up. I understand how it can drive you to despair.

This might not be possible but I'm wondering if they have any provision for employees with disabilities. Do they know about your conditions?

I'm not sure if they do, but I can look around. I just feel a little uncomfortable asking for accommodations because I don't want them to potentially fire me "for no reason" or say something else because I live in an at will state :(

Can you go on full time benefits and just enjoy your life, not having to get up early every day? Benefits are lovely if you can get them. Fake some chronic pain too and get monthly tramadol prescription to enjoy with your coffee every morning with breakfast news, then have a nap in the afternoon with diagnosis murder on the tv. Giving up is lovely if they just give you money and drugs and leave you alone!

I was on disability, but it didn't make enough and I really want to move out of my parents house as they're not supportive. I'm pretty sure my mom is a narcissist as she's said some pretty awful things like she's told me to get over it, others have it worse and that I shouldn't end it because "while nobody else will care, the family will and will suffer" basically ignoring my pain

 

[lostmylove]

I am pretty confident we are already dead and we've been condemned to hell. This is the hell the earth is a prison planet. Hotel California can never really check out.

 

[Judy Garland]

This world IS hell. And you have a hell job too. I used to work retail, so I know what it's like. Not only do you have to restock shelves etc. but every customer that comes in looks at you like you are their servant. I don't miss retail hell at all.

 

[Squiddy]

I am pretty confident we are already dead and we've been condemned to hell. This is the hell the earth is a prison planet. Hotel California can never really check out.

I agree :( this world sucks

This world IS hell. And you have a hell job too. I used to work retail, so I know what it's like. Not only do you have to restock shelves etc. but every customer that comes in looks at you like you are their servant. I don't miss retail hell at all.

Yeah that's true. Luckily I only have to deal with the customers for 2 hours as most of the time, the store is closed.

Apparently some of my other co workers were frustrated with the supervisor so we all went to someone else to complain and she said she'd talk with someone higher up. This is my day off so I guess I'll hear about what happened tomorrow

 

[Ligottian]

This world IS hell. And you have a hell job too. I used to work retail, so I know what it's like. Not only do you have to restock shelves etc. but every customer that comes in looks at you like you are their servant. I don't miss retail hell at all.

I've never worked in retail, but every time I shop I feel a profound sympathy for the workers.

 

[September5th]

I couldn't have said better myself. I'm so tired. I'm tired of waking up to suffer. Everyday. It's literally hell, as I'm incapable of being happy or even ok. It's just an endless pool of despair.
Your job is definitely stressful as all hell. I would probably feel the same as you. I already do, anyway.

 

[Squiddy]

I couldn't have said better myself. I'm so tired. I'm tired of waking up to suffer. Everyday. It's literally hell, as I'm incapable of being happy or even ok. It's just an endless pool of despair.
Your job is definitely stressful as all hell. I would probably feel the same as you. I already do, anyway.

Yeah waking up does suck :( I wish I could pass away in my sleep

 

[Ligottian]

The title of this thread reminds of the theory of an evil God. Go to Youtube and type in The Onion Interview With God for a short {less than three minutes}, darkly comedic vid that deals with the subject.

 

[Squiddy]

Supervisor isn't here tonight so this will probably be a decent night :) I think me and 3 other people got her in trouble as we complained about her to the manager

 

[Shu]

I am pretty confident we are already dead and we've been condemned to hell. This is the hell the earth is a prison planet. Hotel California can never really check out.

Fuck yeah me too