This website does not comfort me anymore

[FuneralCry]

This is just a pointless post and it is honestly not worth reading.
I just wanted to write my thoughts, something that I have been thinking about. I see no point to me being here and posting about how much I want to die. It does not make me feel better or change anything for me. It just reminds me of what I cannot achieve. I have posted many threads about the same thing just for the sake of it. I have never felt any form of communication to be beneficial for me, writing does not change anything or solve anything. The truth is that I am so sad, I have nothing and I am just trying to pass the time. It is no life when you spend the day just waiting for it to be over, just doing pointless things to try and make time go quicker. Nothing ever gives me any relief or eases my suffering. It is all so hopeless. It seems like I am trapped in an eternal loop of wanting to die, yet being unable to do anything about it. Maybe in the past, this site gave me a little bit of relief, but now it just makes me feel empty, it just further reminds me of my pain. I guess I just feel especially tired and ill today, I just wish it was all over.

 

[Crazy4u]

I am sorry you feel this way. I enjoy reading your posts and I know many members do. You can stay, take a break, or leave. It is your choice. I wish you the best

 

[ClownMe]

I'm sorry to hear that, I struggle to find relief in anything nowadays as well.

 

[deletednumber]

The truth is that I am so sad, I have nothing and I am just trying to pass the time. It is no life when you spend the day just waiting for it to be over, just doing pointless things to try and make time go quicker.

This part...i totally relate,i wish we could have the peace we deserve:(

 

[StarryStarry]

I am so sorry you feel this way. Every one is different. Maybe you just need a break from the site then you can come back. I hope you find something to ease your pain.

 

[som1]

I really like reading ur comments under every thread. I find them very relaxing. I hope you feel better soon. And find an alternative way to find comfort.

 

[deletednumber]

I really like reading ur comments under every thread. I find them very relaxing. I hope you feel better soon. And find an alternative way to find comfort.

Exactly...i feel the same about it:')

 

[hopelessgirl]

This is just a pointless post and it is honestly not worth reading.
I just wanted to write my thoughts, something that I have been thinking about. I see no point to me being here and posting about how much I want to die. It does not make me feel better or change anything for me. It just reminds me of what I cannot achieve. I have posted many threads about the same thing just for the sake of it. I have never felt any form of communication to be beneficial for me, writing does not change anything or solve anything. The truth is that I am so sad, I have nothing and I am just trying to pass the time. It is no life when you spend the day just waiting for it to be over, just doing pointless things to try and make time go quicker. Nothing ever gives me any relief or eases my suffering. It is all so hopeless. It seems like I am trapped in an eternal loop of wanting to die, yet being unable to do anything about it. Maybe in the past, this site gave me a little bit of relief, but now it just makes me feel empty, it just further reminds me of my pain. I guess I just feel especially tired and ill today, I just wish it was all over.

Thank you for sharing your feelings. By doing this, at least you helped me understand myself a little bit better, and hopefully you yourself. Thank you.

 

[Lost Magic]

I think life is just boring and unsatisfying as well. Everything just feels so meaningless and insane. I'm sorry you are going through this but I completely feel your pain.

 

[NG_Kasumi]

I could use a drinking buddy right about now. I'd drink a whole case of beer with you and just talk shit and have a great time while being depressed and drunk. :)

Sadly we're never going to meet most of the people here in real life.

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

That's a shame I see you posting a lot of supportive messages in threads often. Maybe some time away will help you.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

"This is just a pointless post and it is honestly not worth reading."

This is really a strong statement. Many writings and speeches should start with this words.

 

[Lost Magic]

That's a shame I see you posting a lot of supportive messages in threads often. Maybe some time away will help you.

we all get off days when things get on top of us, completely understandable.

 

[_Minsk]

I feel like this lately, i hope you will have better days ahead, sending hugs

 

[bigbeatmanifesto]

This is just a pointless post and it is honestly not worth reading.
I just wanted to write my thoughts, something that I have been thinking about. I see no point to me being here and posting about how much I want to die. It does not make me feel better or change anything for me. It just reminds me of what I cannot achieve. I have posted many threads about the same thing just for the sake of it. I have never felt any form of communication to be beneficial for me, writing does not change anything or solve anything. The truth is that I am so sad, I have nothing and I am just trying to pass the time. It is no life when you spend the day just waiting for it to be over, just doing pointless things to try and make time go quicker. Nothing ever gives me any relief or eases my suffering. It is all so hopeless. It seems like I am trapped in an eternal loop of wanting to die, yet being unable to do anything about it. Maybe in the past, this site gave me a little bit of relief, but now it just makes me feel empty, it just further reminds me of my pain. I guess I just feel especially tired and ill today, I just wish it was all over.

I 100% relate to this so at the very least you are not totally alone in feeling this way.

I am only 31 but countdown the days/weeks/months until I'm no longer here. And interspersed with this I spend my days hoping I get some sort of terminal illness or that humanity just ceases to exist. I of course feel guilty about the latter as it is not my right to wish for everyone else's lives to end just because I picked a short straw in the lottery of life.

I am currently writing down my CTB plan, reading the literature and piecing together some sort of suicide note. But the nub of it is, it's highly unlikely I'll actually follow through with it (for various reasons). I don't want to actually die but rather I want my suffering to end. Some days are better than others. Playing football is the only thing that helps me escape these feelings somewhat; seeing as I'm stuck in a 'loop' I sometimes wish I could just be stuck in a loop of playing football for the rest of my life aha.

 

[FuneralCry]

This is just a pointless post and it is honestly not worth reading.
I just wanted to write my thoughts, something that I have been thinking about. I see no point to me being here and posting about how much I want to die. It does not make me feel better or change anything for me. It just reminds me of what I cannot achieve. I have posted many threads about the same thing just for the sake of it. I have never felt any form of communication to be beneficial for me, writing does not change anything or solve anything. The truth is that I am so sad, I have nothing and I am just trying to pass the time. It is no life when you spend the day just waiting for it to be over, just doing pointless things to try and make time go quicker. Nothing ever gives me any relief or eases my suffering. It is all so hopeless. It seems like I am trapped in an eternal loop of wanting to die, yet being unable to do anything about it. Maybe in the past, this site gave me a little bit of relief, but now it just makes me feel empty, it just further reminds me of my pain. I guess I just feel especially tired and ill today, I just wish it was all over.

I will probably always feel the same way, but of course I have ended up back on here as I have nothing else to do. Coming on here is just a way to fill in time and nothing else. My life is very depressing.

 

[rationaltake]

I totally relate to this. I feel a lot of us on here are marking time. I need to go.

 

[Life sucks]

I'm sorry. Life is really a trap and a loop of suffering. It's really painful to be between passing time and emptiness and the outside world full of suffering. No matter what you choose, I wish you the best.

 

[Leiden]

I came on this thread before and I was trying to formulate some words. The truth is, I have no words today. My mind is kind of confused, but I wanted to come back and support you in your thread, as you always support everyone else. I want you to know that I hear you and I'm sorry for your suffering. I'm right there with you. It's very, very difficult.

I really like reading ur comments under every thread. I find them very relaxing. I hope you feel better soon. And find an alternative way to find comfort.

I too, find @LeavingForever replies relaxing/comforting.

 

[Of The Universe]

We love you and support you,whether you are Funeral Cry,or Leaving 4ever. So please hang in thete. I hope you get better,somehow!

 

[Marktheghost]

You can pm me if you want. I'll comfort you.

 

[yive]

nothing comforts me in this world as well. life is evil and people are evil, so i can totally understand what you are talking about. at least some people can understand us, but unfortunately we can't help each other properly. it's a shame that we can't get assisted suicide. so many people need help to escape their suffering and they have no right to it because society wants to exploit them to the last, to suck out everything to the last drop of blood. it's a shame and a crime, and that must change

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

You are always compassionate to others and offer your thoughts no matter how difficult the topic, which is something that I and many others here appreciate. Going out of your way to acknowledge and help others is a wonderful trait, even if it is some lines of text on a screen, your words have the potential to brighten what would be an otherwise bleak day for the lot of us. I'm sorry that this site isn't providing you with that same help anymore, I hope the time away will bring you some well deserved comfort if you decide to take a break.

 

[Versailles]

I'm sorry you feel this way, many here appreciate you a lot, including me, and for a long time, you became one of the most beloved users of the forum, your words comfort others, since it makes us feel that you are not alone, so you can I am sure that the words you have said here have helped others, I am sorry that you do not feel the same for yourself, and I wish you the best