This time tomorrow

[ready to go....]

I have decided that tomorrow will be my 3rd and hopefully final attempt, with a successful ctb.

I have had to change my method due to having no car for CO method, so will be going via full suspension hanging. There is a little woodland area about a 5 minute walk from my house, with a bench right by. I shall sit and have some wine beforehand, watch the sun go down, then attempt when the sun has gone down.

2 people have ctb by full suspension hanging in this same area over the past 6 months, so it won't be too much of a shock to the public when I'm found I don't think.

I've tried to make a go of things the past few months but nothing is working. I just know I'm not meant for this life, and know this is the right thing. Although it may upset family and friends, most of them know my struggles, so I don't think they'll be too surprised when they find out.

Fingers crossed all goes well tomorrow, I really can't have a 3rd failed attempt.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've also always seen myself as not being meant for this life, I hope that you find what you wish for as to me it sounds so horrific failing ctb.

 

[Al_stargate]

I'm really sorry life brought you to this point man. I can't even imagine your struggles or what you're dealing with. Hope you find peace! Wish you well.

 

[jscudd55]

Godspeed brother, this hit home exactly how I feel about everything tried to make a go at things too, and just feel like not meant for this life too. Ironically if I try to ctb again it'll be my third attempt too and have same mindset of my next I have to get right

 

[theboy]

A elegant CTB

but I hope you feel abetter and you dont need take this option
Peace

 

[starbright2155]

I'm sorry you've struggled so much. Would you mind describing why you believe you're "not meant for this life?"

 

[ready to go....]

I'm sorry you've struggled so much. Would you mind describing why you believe you're "not meant for this life?"

Of course.
I'm 30 years old. I've never had a proper relationship. I struggle to keep friends. I am so far in debt that I can never see myself living a good life. I'm still living at home and can't keep a job. I don't see any kind of future for myself. I'm very much a disappointment to my family, and they've made it known on many occasions. The list goes on, they're just a few examples.

 

[wait.what]

I'm really sorry that things have come to this for you. The fact that there have already been two hangings near you in the last 6 months tells me that something systemic and nasty is going on. I don't know if it comforts you to think that this is a "them" problem at least as much as it is a "you" problem. Maybe it doesn't. It's not like standing there saying, "Society, stop being evil!" is going to help you.

Whatever happens, I hope you finally find peace.