Venting This taboo makes me sad

[Cheers]

I just wish i could talk about suicide with my family but even though my parents know i'm severely depressed they don't want to hear me mention ctb bc they can't accept that as a possibility. They're very supportive of my mental health and thinking I could kms hurt them but i know i'm going to die and i really wish i could let them know too so that we could truly talk the way people talk when they know they won't ever see each other again. It would ease their grief too.
But no, instead i'm going to die a lonely death all by myself away from home and they will grieve me wishing they could have known and talked to me before. It makes me sad but no can do ig.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

Yeah it's hard with suicide being taboo and stigmatized. Parents might even call the cops too. Just make sure you've given yourself enough time to think things through and that's exactly what you want

 

[Cheers]

Yeah it's hard with suicide being taboo and stigmatized. Parents might even call the cops too. Just make sure you've given yourself enough time to think things through and that's exactly what you want

Oh yeah i thought it through, not the first time either, but thanks!

 

[fox_wannabe]

Yeah me mom would never accept that, but last time I told her (year ago) this she made me sign a paper that would shift any blame from her If I ctb. It was heartless and brutal of her. She really thought about It beforehand because she had it ready. IDK what to think about It.
I didn't sign It and told her I will get therapy, which didn't help.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, suicide should not be so taboo. I wish we lived in a world where euthanasia was legal and we could tell others in advance and they would have to accept it. Of course, it would be selfish for others to expect us to suffer for decades. We have the right to exit this world at a time of our choosing as we did not ask to exist. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Cheers]

Yes, suicide should not be so taboo. I wish we lived in a world where euthanasia was legal and we could tell others in advance and they would have to accept it. Of course, it would be selfish for others to expect us to suffer for decades. We have the right to exit this world at a time of our choosing as we did not ask to exist. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

Exactly, and since it'll happen regardless of whether others are warned or not they'll have to accept it anyway so we may as well help them through the grief/acceptation process by talking things through while we're still here so everyone can be at peace when the time comes yk
Thanks and you too

 

[Bone]

she made me sign a paper that would shift any blame from her If I ctb.

this is one of the weirdest and saddest things i've ever heard. though i could see my own narcisstic mother doing this also.

 

[upyourgrindset]

I just wish i could talk about suicide with my family but even though my parents know i'm severely depressed they don't want to hear me mention ctb bc they can't accept that as a possibility. They're very supportive of my mental health and thinking I could kms hurt them but i know i'm going to die and i really wish i could let them know too so that we could truly talk the way people talk when they know they won't ever see each other again. It would ease their grief too.
But no, instead i'm going to die a lonely death all by myself away from home and they will grieve me wishing they could have known and talked to me before. It makes me sad but no can do ig.

This is one of the reasons this place (SS) is so awesome. Not being subjected to stigma and discouragement is such a huge relief.

 

[AnonymousS]

Yeah me mom would never accept that, but last time I told her (year ago) this she made me sign a paper that would shift any blame from her If I ctb. It was heartless and brutal of her. She really thought about It beforehand because she had it ready. IDK what to think about It.
I didn't sign It and told her I will get therapy, which didn't help.

That's a very cold, and detached thing to do in my opinion.

 

[fox_wannabe]

@T-Bone @AnonymousS Yeah... I am not sure If she had it prepared or not, she pulled it out really fast. Idk If she is narcissistic but she is definitely very pragmatic. Since than I did not mention anything about suicide or even depression to her. Only very censored version of what is happening. I would be afraid she would send me to mental facility as she is respected healthcare worker.

I just get told to go to therapy, in which the problems are not addressed and where people assume that being dead is bad thing and being alive is good. What if choice to ctb is right choice one can make? Therapist do not understand that.

 

[AnonymousS]

@T-Bone @AnonymousS Yeah... I am not sure If she had it prepared or not, she pulled it out really fast. Idk If she is narcissistic but she is definitely very pragmatic. Since than I did not mention anything about suicide or even depression to her. Only very censored version of what is happening. I would be afraid she would send me to mental facility as she is respected healthcare worker.

I just get told to go to therapy, in which the problems are not addressed and where people assume that being dead is bad thing and being alive is good. What if choice to ctb is right choice one can make? Therapist do not understand that.

Yes everyone assumes if you're alive and walking around that's best. Which is wrong for many. I feel for you in that situation, i would think that she would at least want to talk with you about it.
I would rather be better and healthy, and in proper housing, but the reality is i cannot cope and have stuck it out for years, in between multiple attempts. The next one will not fail, some people can empathise and understand even though it is a sad thing. Others don't even try.