Story This morning was really hard.

[rntmss]

Last night, I talked to my wife and we started working things out and started becoming friends again. Talked about what I did wrong and all the good times we had... because things were great for pretty much our entire 11 year relationship minus a couple of rough patches and our really bad one at the end.

I woke up, started my regular routines, and then it sunk in. It was a dream. I'm now thinking about our last conversations we had before separating and now I had so many opportunities to stop things and put them back on the right track. I can't stop thinking about the heartbreak she must have felt. I can't stop thinking about all the funny little sayings we had with each other.

The last email I got from her 9-ish months ago where she told me she wasn't interested in my rehabilitation or counselling. She cut me out forever. My best friend is gone forever.

I think I'm going to start my plans. I have some ideas but I just can't live with this guilt anymore. It's too much. I'm just a sobbing mess on the bathroom floor.

 

[mpnf]

Last night, I talked to my wife and we started working things out and started becoming friends again. Talked about what I did wrong and all the good times we had... because things were great for pretty much our entire 11 year relationship minus a couple of rough patches and our really bad one at the end.

I woke up, started my regular routines, and then it sunk in. It was a dream. I'm now thinking about our last conversations we had before separating and now I had so many opportunities to stop things and put them back on the right track. I can't stop thinking about the heartbreak she must have felt. I can't stop thinking about all the funny little sayings we had with each other.

The last email I got from her 9-ish months ago where she told me she wasn't interested in my rehabilitation or counselling. She cut me out forever. My best friend is gone forever.

I think I'm going to start my plans. I have some ideas but I just can't live with this guilt anymore. It's too much. I'm just a sobbing mess on the bathroom floor.

I'm sorry you are feeling like this. Is there any way you can reconcile with your wife again to the point of mailing things different and better?
If you feel crying is the only way to cope with it and to let it all out . Just do it and don't contain yourself.
There will always be a light out there for you and if you continue talking to her , you might get her back as a friend first and then who knows?

But stop torturing your mind the more you can and go out and do an activity that pleases you and focus on that.

Have a wonderful weekend!

 

[MsMaudlin]

I'm sorry you are so upset, hate to think of you crying.

It seems like there won't be any chance of a reconciliation, she doesn't seem at all supportive.

I hope you feel brighter soon!
Love and peace ❤

 

[Largeletters]

I'm so sorry that it wasn't real. But if she is not supportive, not willing to listen to your reasoning or apologies or even what you have to say, she doesn't deserve you