I've found this whole thing to be a bit of a mind virus.
I may need to cleanse .... :)
Suffering being built into Life concerns me because I find it very difficult to accept that life emerged from
matter spontaneously.
I am wawre of evolutionairy theory and am as happy as Larry about it .
It's the FIRST CAUSE that gives me gyp .
It will help me to really really believe in the sponataneous emergeance of life because then I can take my place
in the great battle against suffering.
I feel it is valid to reduce suffering .. .although my problem is , feeling like I might be in some demiurge's petri dish really fucks me off .
I had a very very religious upbringing so I guess that's the main reason .
I think it is part of the age old ( supposedly resolved) aguement between the Vitalists and the Objective Materialists
Always a big shout out to the Cathar's who were eradicated by the Catholics because they believed this place was a kind of hell .
I may never 'know' ... but for some reason , while writing this , maybe I can fully get behind the reduction of suffering even if we are in a dirty petri dish.
Maybe I'm so usually in a downer , that I just can't even consider such an attitude .
I can deal with the demiurge idea if I believe in a corresponding BIGGER nicer God ..
But that never makes sense because it requires the big god to fascilitate the demiurge being sadistic.
So , big woo woo moment ....
Maybe , it's the inner/outer resolution ?
Our inner lack of hope ... somehow "inventing" compassion ?
Regardless of either a sadistic demiurge or an indifferent universe .
I love that scene in the "tree of life" where a raptor doesn't kill a cute little herbivore dino ...