Nanako
Experienced
- Dec 24, 2018
- 287
I was going to type a long post going over everything that's been happening in detail but I don't have the energy to do even that. I'm so tired. I really, really, really want to die. So bad. But I don't have the money or the means to do it right now. My parents would find out. I'm so unbelievably unlucky. I can't take this anymore, why does it have to be so hellish? I was bawling my eyes out and praying for something or someone to just kill me, so desperate that I almost began to beg for like a supernatural force or whatever to just end me then and there. I don't even have the energy to pretend that I'm fine around others anymore, my family will find out and they'll become increasingly on high alert around me. Thinking about how much longer I'll have to take this is almost driving me MAD, I need to be calm but this is so hard.