This is it

[melanar]

Well everyone, i guess this is it.

I didnt talk much but i gathered information from here.
Was going by charcoal, but even after getting all materials it seemed to be unreliable so i decided on the good old hanging.
This weekend i did my setup. Bought a dual steel bar to put above my wood shelves, stuck it with some sawed wood to avoid it to move and bought a 10mm polypropylene rope to do the service.

Maybe i will do it sober, maybe with vodka, i still didnt do it, just making my final preparations.
Fun thing, i just found out i lost my wallet today on a gas station, bugger lol
My heart raced after writing this, even writing a farewell note to my love one which i am about to lose (part of the reason).

Gonna tie the rope to anchor it, then making a slipknot. Might lube it with soap or peanutbutter oil to make sure it tightens up nicely.

I am nervous, trying to keep calm and reminding all the bad stuff which happened this year.

 

[Revan16]

Hey bud, find peace. I have my setup ready, just waiting for my (ex) girlfriend to move out in the next few days. See you on the other side

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

May you both find peace.

 

[DoesANameEvenMatter]

wish you luck and peace. im gonna try tourniquet method tonight so maybe i'll join u in the void in a few hours

 

[melanar]

setup ready, nose done. did a anchor hit and a slipknot.
Tested a bit, its painful on the throat.
Trying to do it with full lungs, felt a bit dizzy, nothing much for now.



Still not there, max i could was some mild spasms but no blackout.
I am holding back, i can feel it.
I knew it would be hard to faint. I am out of air before it.

 

[melanar]

dammit, i am still here, cant manage to pass the tingle sensation, neck hurts too much, feels im drowning.
Started drinking vodka, in hopes it helps. I really dont want to see another dawn, why is my body fighting so much!!
i slipped and got full suspended for some seconds, but was instantly grabbing a pole. fck sake!

 

[DoesANameEvenMatter]

Failed mine too :( The wooden spoon broke as I was twisting wtf

 

[GinaIsReady]

dammit, i am still here, cant manage to pass the tingle sensation, neck hurts too much, feels im drowning.
Started drinking vodka, in hopes it helps. I really dont want to see another dawn, why is my body fighting so much!!
i slipped and got full suspended for some seconds, but was instantly grabbing a pole. fck sake!

Are you still there @melanar?

Failed mine too :( The wooden spoon broke as I was twisting wtf

Hello … sorry, that must be very frustrating.

 

[melanar]

Still here...
After drinking i fell asleep on the ground, coulndt do it, now i have a small blood patch on my eye and a very sore throat.
I dont know if i can do it this way. I waant close to fainting even pushing hard. My throat was always hurting like hell.
I mean the closest i got was to have this tingly and spasm effect. Cant say my vision was going dark. Was it close?

My only hope now iis the SN but might take too long to arrive.