this is it for me

[ilk]

i always feel silly writing these posts so i dont like going back & reading them so sorry if my posts are similar or im repeating myself.

wanna say alot rn but i rlly cant bring myself to type it all. im a mess. i wish suicide was easy. i also wish my life was better. i wish for alot. thats all i can do is wish.

this is it tho i guess. i cant explain what i mean by that im sorry but i just feel that way..yk? hope someone understands or maybe not. until i get the real courage to ctb, this is simply it for me. i lost myself & i accept that this is my sad miserable life. i just want to bed rot & sleep all day. i just hate my family have to witness this

 

[chester]

So there's at least two of us.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish to sleep, I'm sorry you suffer, it's cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.