Deleted member 18655
Enlightened
- Jun 4, 2020
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I'm trying to get some things sorted and none of these details/decisions are simple or easy.
I don't want to involve anyone until after I'm gone. At all. I can write delayed emails but there are some things that need to be done without email and I can't figure out how, yet.
My family lives hours away from here and don't have any contact with the people I'm leaving behind here. (I wouldn't call them friends after how I treat them). I want them to have some of my things that only they can appreciate, things that really should be taken care of. Do I leave them on one of their doorsteps in the middle of the night before I ctb?
The people I'm leaving behind here are religious but will not be involved in my funeral (I don't think - i'm not sure how to find out) so my family won't "need" them for my final arrangements. But, everyone's under the impression I'm up here, finally happy surrounded by friends and faith. And they know how important it was to me. And I know the people here would need to say goodbye if they can. Do I bother letting them contact each other or suggest they not?
And, the one thing racking my brain right now is the first alert. I don't want any of the emails I'm sending to require someone to call 911. They'll have enough to deal with. I've been trying to find an email for the city's emergency responders but there isn't anything that's not a form on their sites. In place of sending an email, how can I make sure I'm not left for days/weeks? Really, no one would ever know if I wasn't the one letting someone know I'm gone.
I know I'm overthinking things. It does feel good to be in a position to make these decisions. I like that it's almost over. It's just not soon enough.
And this is definitely NOT the easy way out.
I don't want to involve anyone until after I'm gone. At all. I can write delayed emails but there are some things that need to be done without email and I can't figure out how, yet.
My family lives hours away from here and don't have any contact with the people I'm leaving behind here. (I wouldn't call them friends after how I treat them). I want them to have some of my things that only they can appreciate, things that really should be taken care of. Do I leave them on one of their doorsteps in the middle of the night before I ctb?
The people I'm leaving behind here are religious but will not be involved in my funeral (I don't think - i'm not sure how to find out) so my family won't "need" them for my final arrangements. But, everyone's under the impression I'm up here, finally happy surrounded by friends and faith. And they know how important it was to me. And I know the people here would need to say goodbye if they can. Do I bother letting them contact each other or suggest they not?
And, the one thing racking my brain right now is the first alert. I don't want any of the emails I'm sending to require someone to call 911. They'll have enough to deal with. I've been trying to find an email for the city's emergency responders but there isn't anything that's not a form on their sites. In place of sending an email, how can I make sure I'm not left for days/weeks? Really, no one would ever know if I wasn't the one letting someone know I'm gone.
I know I'm overthinking things. It does feel good to be in a position to make these decisions. I like that it's almost over. It's just not soon enough.
And this is definitely NOT the easy way out.