SinisterKid
Visionary
- Jun 1, 2019
- 2,113
And still it rumbles on. Conspiracy theories abound. People at each others throats. Shit happening. Sound familiar? Yep, the real world. I was even stupid enough to buy into it for a moment or three. Defending others is something that comes easy to me, doing it in such a way as to not belittle someone, possibly not. But thats my lot. I wont be doing it again, not here, not in the real world or anywhere else for that matter.
Anyway, enough on that crap.
It never made sense to me why anyone would want multiple accounts on any kind of internet platform such as this place. Many moons ago, I was part of some online community or other [theres been many] and I got friendly with a guy from SA. We spoke every day, laughed a lot as e shared a similar sense of humour. But it turned out he had 6 different accounts. One of those accounts was in the guise of a lass from Oz. She was active, attractive in more than just a physical way and a joy to be able to chat with. Then this guy from SA tells us she has been raped and murdered. It hit a few of us who felt we knew her as well as you can know anyone online, very hard. Little did we know at that point it was yet another of this guys false accounts. But I mean, it just goes to show how twisted some people really are. Finally, it all came to light and obviously I lost someone I deemed a decent online friend and also others who were never real. The moral of the story?
Then I knew someone from the US deep south. I got to know her via a radio station I listened to. We got to talking, the talks became more frequent [you know where this is headed dont you] and soon a rather intense online relationship developed. Her life was a mess. I have this "thing" about saving women in distress [blame my mother] so it was a match made in online heaven. I took some time away from my current partner as I was convinced I had found my soul mate. We shared so much. I was making plans to go and be with her. When I named the date, something came up that prevented it from happening on her end. OK, no worries, postpone. I named another date, the same response. I never once dreamt that it was anything other than coincidence. But each and every time I mentioned meeting, something prevented it from happening. In the end, I said it was maybe better to just remain friends as it was likely we would never be together. Not long after that, I find she is seeing someone. OK, we agreed, just friends. But it was on/off, constantly, with me doing my knight in shining armour routine every time it was off. I used to make long phone calls that cost a small fortune, just trying to calm her down when she made threats to end it all. It all got very messy and it turned very sour. In the end, she told me she wanted nothing more to do with me when I told her something I knew would hurt her like she had hurt me. It was a lie, but it did the job. But I dont think either of us turned out to be who we actually were in the eyes of the other. Again, theres a moral here.
Fast forward. Anyone remember Friends Reunited? All the rage a few years ago. I used the site and met a old flame from my school days. We relived some old memories and got on famously. She was having a hard time. Seeing a theme here? Anyway, long story short, we became very close. We spoke most days, exchanged e mails etc etc. I even went to see her one day, a nice 500 mile round trip. Her mum and dad were a right mess, not what I remembered at all. I used to think they were the coolest people on the planet. Anyway I digress. This friendship was becoming more than just that, albeit very slowly. Then I got ill. Then I tried to take my own life and that was that. I told her about it all and she washed her hands of me. She gave my details to a old mate and when I told him about my suicide attempts, that was that, never heard from him again. Moral?
You are not stupid, you see the pattern here. None of us online can be trusted to be who we say we are. Oh some will scream FOUL here and protest they dont lie and they are who and what they say they are. But in reality, can we really believe that? I dont doubt people intentions, I dont doubt my own, but I am no innocent bystander who has been wronged. I have made plenty of my own mistakes. But recent events surrounding this place have put people on their guard and rightfully so. We are maybe too open here for our own good as it is a clearnet [visible to all] site. Maybe there is way too much info floating about the place that will attract unwanted attention. But all I am saying is, be wary, dont be cynical, just wary, that some of us are not who we say we are and are motivated by issues that I will never understand if I live to be 100.
Conspiracy is dead, long live conspiracy
Anyway, enough on that crap.
It never made sense to me why anyone would want multiple accounts on any kind of internet platform such as this place. Many moons ago, I was part of some online community or other [theres been many] and I got friendly with a guy from SA. We spoke every day, laughed a lot as e shared a similar sense of humour. But it turned out he had 6 different accounts. One of those accounts was in the guise of a lass from Oz. She was active, attractive in more than just a physical way and a joy to be able to chat with. Then this guy from SA tells us she has been raped and murdered. It hit a few of us who felt we knew her as well as you can know anyone online, very hard. Little did we know at that point it was yet another of this guys false accounts. But I mean, it just goes to show how twisted some people really are. Finally, it all came to light and obviously I lost someone I deemed a decent online friend and also others who were never real. The moral of the story?
Then I knew someone from the US deep south. I got to know her via a radio station I listened to. We got to talking, the talks became more frequent [you know where this is headed dont you] and soon a rather intense online relationship developed. Her life was a mess. I have this "thing" about saving women in distress [blame my mother] so it was a match made in online heaven. I took some time away from my current partner as I was convinced I had found my soul mate. We shared so much. I was making plans to go and be with her. When I named the date, something came up that prevented it from happening on her end. OK, no worries, postpone. I named another date, the same response. I never once dreamt that it was anything other than coincidence. But each and every time I mentioned meeting, something prevented it from happening. In the end, I said it was maybe better to just remain friends as it was likely we would never be together. Not long after that, I find she is seeing someone. OK, we agreed, just friends. But it was on/off, constantly, with me doing my knight in shining armour routine every time it was off. I used to make long phone calls that cost a small fortune, just trying to calm her down when she made threats to end it all. It all got very messy and it turned very sour. In the end, she told me she wanted nothing more to do with me when I told her something I knew would hurt her like she had hurt me. It was a lie, but it did the job. But I dont think either of us turned out to be who we actually were in the eyes of the other. Again, theres a moral here.
Fast forward. Anyone remember Friends Reunited? All the rage a few years ago. I used the site and met a old flame from my school days. We relived some old memories and got on famously. She was having a hard time. Seeing a theme here? Anyway, long story short, we became very close. We spoke most days, exchanged e mails etc etc. I even went to see her one day, a nice 500 mile round trip. Her mum and dad were a right mess, not what I remembered at all. I used to think they were the coolest people on the planet. Anyway I digress. This friendship was becoming more than just that, albeit very slowly. Then I got ill. Then I tried to take my own life and that was that. I told her about it all and she washed her hands of me. She gave my details to a old mate and when I told him about my suicide attempts, that was that, never heard from him again. Moral?
You are not stupid, you see the pattern here. None of us online can be trusted to be who we say we are. Oh some will scream FOUL here and protest they dont lie and they are who and what they say they are. But in reality, can we really believe that? I dont doubt people intentions, I dont doubt my own, but I am no innocent bystander who has been wronged. I have made plenty of my own mistakes. But recent events surrounding this place have put people on their guard and rightfully so. We are maybe too open here for our own good as it is a clearnet [visible to all] site. Maybe there is way too much info floating about the place that will attract unwanted attention. But all I am saying is, be wary, dont be cynical, just wary, that some of us are not who we say we are and are motivated by issues that I will never understand if I live to be 100.
Conspiracy is dead, long live conspiracy
