Venting This is all fucking bullshit.

[Rugnificent]

I'm so tired of having people waste my time. It doesn't matter if I live or die so fuck it.The second I can floor it out of here, Ill take it. I'm at a crossroad. Idk what to do anymore. Maybe there's happiness for me out there in some way shape or form.

 

[TAW122]

I believe the choice is up to you. If you are certain about CTB'ing then you will go for that choice, but if you choose to recover then you would go that route. I have been in both situations, I have wanted to recover and have temporary times in life where I made a small recovery then slip back into despair again as reality hit me hard. One of the worst states to be in is one of indecisiveness, one that paralyzes you with fear and being in limbo, not being able to CTB nor wanting to live.