This has to be the year I end it please

[kitkatt]

This is the first year in a long time I've just stopped caring. The mental block of being perceived no matter where I am or where I go is go but I fear it's too late. I've never posted I've reached out I've always kept it between myself and whoever I'm seeing at the time with the license. Capitalism doesn't allow me to see as many as I need because I'm poor. But I can feel myself losing my shit this world won't accommodate me u dont want to have to be be cruel back. I never understood people saying it was a dog eat dog world and well I'll still don't ya because neurodivergence but I'd rather FUCKING STARVE I FUCKING HATE IT SO MUCH HERE. I don't want to live in a world where I've been conditioned to bite but they can't give me the kindness of rehabilitation or death. It's not fucking fair man I'll forever be locked in that bathroom as their pet and I'm so long gone I'm just a fucking rabid animal but they refuse to put me down because I'm pretty to watch suffer.

 

[hurb]

I wish we could die in our sleep if we simply believe hard enough

 

[pumpkinboy]

This is the first year in a long time I've just stopped caring. The mental block of being perceived no matter where I am or where I go is go but I fear it's too late. I've never posted I've reached out I've always kept it between myself and whoever I'm seeing at the time with the license. Capitalism doesn't allow me to see as many as I need because I'm poor. But I can feel myself losing my shit this world won't accommodate me u dont want to have to be be cruel back. I never understood people saying it was a dog eat dog world and well I'll still don't ya because neurodivergence but I'd rather FUCKING STARVE I FUCKING HATE IT SO MUCH HERE. I don't want to live in a world where I've been conditioned to bite but they can't give me the kindness of rehabilitation or death. It's not fucking fair man I'll forever be locked in that bathroom as their pet and I'm so long gone I'm just a fucking rabid animal but they refuse to put me down because I'm pretty to watch suffer.

Why does this have to be the year you end it?

 

[kitkatt]

I wish we could die in our sleep if we simply believe hard enough

I swear. I went to bed so many times when I was little hoping I wouldn't wake up

Why does this have to be the year you end it?

I just feel it does. This is my 29th year here in may and I've never stopped looking for ways to leave. Also things continue to get worse and in the world or well maybe not worse I suppose but it's just not all being hidden from the public anymore and I'm so tired of it all.