Thinkng about breaking up with my boyfriend and shooting myself again uh oh

[3/4Dead]

Title basically
Just been a rough few months and that's what makes the most sense I guess...

Too stressed at the idea of having to go to law school and then being a lawyer and all...

I have top surgery at the end of the month so I'm going to wait it out until after then but. Can't really tell you what I'll do next. Like I said, just makes sense I leave my partner and eat a gun, be sort of done with it all i guess. A good time of year to do it i think

Dunno. I guess I want someone to talk me out of it or something lol.

 

[socksnsandles]

i cant advise whether you should kys or not, but if you are going to, then yes break up with your significant other. thats what i did. i think its wrong to drag them into it

 

[sanctionedusage]

i don't think the words "we're breaking up" before you shoot yourself would make a difference in whether or not they're being 'dragged into it.'

just put the impulse to rest and tough it out until you've gotten your surgery. the pain in recovery can be cathartic/grounding, and you'll end up with a serious QOL improvement. i think it's a big enough change to possibly talk you out of it on its own.

 

[wine is fine but]

Dunno. I guess I want someone to talk me out of it or something lol.

if you want someone to talk you out of it, then you do not need anyone to talk you out of it

you do not want to do it

i do not know your personal situation, and am pro choice, but you do not need to be in a hurry to find a bus - you might get there before it arrives, and make yourself worse off. there are plenty of buses out there, and plenty of time to catch one if that is what you really want to do. you do not have to rush it

you seem to be very young, and potentially have a full life ahead of you. life is stressful, but getting through the stresses is what makes it pleasant too. if you have not felt pain, then you cannot know when you are feeling good. same with sadness and happiness. the bad times help to teach us and also make the good times better. perhaps just wait for sometime until you really know what you want. enjoy the little things because they are the things that make people happy. a simple conversation, a simple moment in time, a simple sight or sound. they are the things we remember with fondness later on

it is true that life is much easier as a kid in a way, but i would never want to go back to those supposedly easier times. with responsibilities you can have choices, and also a feeling of accomplishment. you should not let yourself get caught up in the idea that life has sucked, and as an adult it will get worse. it totally sucks as a kid, but has many more chances to be happy as an adult