Thinking

[Reallysad]

Does anyone else just sit alone in there house and think what's the point?
.why am I here?
Why cannot find happiness?
I just have no fight left anymore and everyday is just a blur.I'm just emotionless and dead on the inside and feel nothing.
I also think why do all the bad people get on in life and the good do not.
I give my heart and all to folk and get it ripped out and thrown in my face,people are so heartless now am I the only one thinking this?
I have no Will to carry on at all now just done.

 

[almostoutofhere]

I'm past thinking about all that, I'm convinced that for some of us it just wasn't meant to be. I wish that wasn't true but it is what it is. But yeah I'm done too

 

[Idontmatter]

I can relate. I'm to the point now that I'm numb. Nothing excites me or makes me happy. Any hope to stay alive is now gone so I just have a few days left.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also feel so done with existing in every single way possible, I mean I've never even wanted to be here in the first place. I'm tired of delaying the inevitable and wishing to be gone, I do view it as being such an awful thing just being awake. I'm very much aware of the fact that there is no point to this at all, and I know that I will just feel more tired the longer I continue to exist, with my experience of existing just getting worse as time goes on but sadly I'm still here.

But I do believe that it's true that humans are responsible for so much of the suffering that exists in this cruel, horrible world and no wonder so many wish to ctb. At least to me life itself will certainly always be the true problem.

 

[Hollowman]

You sound like me except I've done a lot of bad things in the past. Some would say I got what I deserve.

 

[Reallysad]

You sound like me except I've done a lot of bad things in the past. Some would say I got what I deserve.

Yeah but if you are truly sorry for what you have done you should not have to suffer like we are.

 

[Wannagonow]

I sit here alone especially at night and think about all those things you said. You're definitely not alone. I think about hating to be alone everyday, about having only one friend in the world, about being broke and how ctb is the only answer for me (mostly due to mental health reasons). Has been for a million years. Sorry you're feeling like this. I really am. You sound very frustrated. I hope things level off and you can find peace- whatever that might mean for you.

 

[CountOfTuscany]

>This dude has a house

All memes aside, I think about these questions a lot myself even though most of my interactions with other people are positive. It feels so silly that I can achieve a level of success for which others would kill, and yet somehow the reward mechanisms in my brain are so insufficient that I'm using this forum.

This might sound stupid, but check out the book "The Upward Spiral". It's about what you can do to change the concentrations of various neurotrasmitters in your brain so that you can feel something again. Following some ideas from that book made me feel a lot better, to the point where I could have even called myself OK for a couple months.

Unfortunately for me, bipolar disorder makes long-term recovery near-impossible... but maybe this will help you.

 

[firesteak]

I sit alone and think whats the point everyday. Like why should i do anything? Does anything even matter? I have had/have successful businesses although my contracting business never recovered after covid. I have 3 wonderful kids. Own multiple houses. These are things some would kill for.

I never developed socially. I spent my school years hiding the multiple forms of abuse that was going on at home. I wasnt allowed to use the phone growing up (this was before cell phones). Wasnt allowed to leave the house. As a result i have no real friends. I have a few acquaintances (one less as of monday), but i never had a text from anyone besides my wife or kids. I ask myself everyday what am I doing here? Why am i here? Whats the use? Why cant i be happy? All this has taken its toll on my marriage. We barely speak to each other and she uses the kids against me every chance she gets slowly turning them against me.

I feel like im rambling on, or this don't belong here... smh. But my answer to the op question is yes i think that every day.