Thinking of telling someone

[NoPunIntended]

Today at lunch break I went to the store to buy a rope. I'm planning on eventually CTBing tonight. I'm stacked with weed and I might buy some booze from the gas station

I'm not sure if I'm actually gonna do it, probably not. I'm too much of a coward.

I'm thinking of telling someone and I'm not sure if I should. There are some online contacts I have, who I know wont snitch me. I'm thinking of telling actual friends tho. Maybe I'm doing all this shit for attention afterall, but I think it might be because deep down I want to be helped by an outsider.

 

[Hotsackage]

I've been like that. Then I just went to bed and moved on. I wish you well.

 

[cali22]

Everyone has the right to live in peace


i wish you the best

 

[divinemistress36]

Its ok to reach out for help

 

[Yarani]

deep down I want to be helped by an outsider.

What kind of help would you need?

 

[NoPunIntended]

What kind of help would you need?

Maybe someone to talk me out of my CTB would be enough. In best case some positive affirmation or even somebody to take me to a mental asylum or something. The thought of continuting my daily live tomorrow is hell to me.

Its ok to reach out for help

Aslong as you get taken seriously, but how high are the chances for that?

 

[karmaisabitch]

Today at lunch break I went to the store to buy a rope. I'm planning on eventually CTBing tonight. I'm stacked with weed and I might buy some booze from the gas station

I'm not sure if I'm actually gonna do it, probably not. I'm too much of a coward.

I'm thinking of telling someone and I'm not sure if I should. There are some online contacts I have, who I know wont snitch me. I'm thinking of telling actual friends tho. Maybe I'm doing all this shit for attention afterall, but I think it might be because deep down I want to be helped by an outsider.

Get the help you need! Suicide is not the answer for every suffering.. good luck

 

[divinemistress36]

Maybe someone to talk me out of my CTB would be enough. In best case some positive affirmation or even somebody to take me to a mental asylum or something. The thought of continuting my daily live tomorrow is hell to me.

Aslong as you get taken seriously, but how high are the chances for that?

If you go to the ER and tell them you are having suicidal thoughts they will admit you to the psych unit

 

[NoPunIntended]

If you go to the ER and tell them you are having suicidal thoughts they will admit you to the psych unit

Have thought of that, but getting into a psych unit would mean that I loose my job, so not sure on that

 

[divinemistress36]

You could have the doctors write you a note doesnt have to be that you were in a psych unit but that you were in the hospital so you had to miss work

 

[UKscotty]

Sounds like you want help not death, maybe check out the recovery section? Some of the sadists here are evil and will tell you everyone should be allowed to die and recovery doesn't exist.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

If you want help and recovery, over ctb, by all means reach out and try and get help. If you get help that works, great. If not you can always revisit ctb at a later date. It's all about your needs. Do what is best for you.