i don't want to push you one way or the other, but is it possible you might be moving the goalposts because there's some part of you that isn't ready? what is your subconscious telling you?
I don't think I'll ever be 100 percent ready, but I don't see an enjoyable future. I don't want to prolong my suffering.
But I also have anxiety / OCD, so I have a tendency to worry and overthink. So of course, I would prefer to have an "easy way out."
Lol im still working on the SN part of the equation, I think ill have to tough it out though. Likelihood of getting dopamine blockers are zero.
What's your step by step plan look like?
God I'm sorry, yeah it's a pain to get ahold of these things.
Step by step isn't planned yet because I'm waiting to see how likely it'll be for me to get Benzos. :)
Personally, I wouldn't do it without the Benzos cause as effective as it might be it seriously sounds so awful to CTB by SN otherwise...
So yeah, I totally get why you would prefer N.
People on this forum are increasingly doing it without the Benzos and even without the AE but yeah there is a large part of me that is not particularly enjoying the thought of it. I don't like some of the descriptions.
Personally, I wouldn't do it without the Benzos cause as effective as it might be it seriously sounds so awful to CTB by SN otherwise...
So yeah, I totally get why you would prefer N.
People on this forum are increasingly doing it without the Benzos and even without the AE but yeah there is a large part of me that is not particularly enjoying the thought of it. I don't like some of the descriptions.