Thinking about the grief I am going to cause hurts me.

[knowledgeseeking]

I have my method and I feel ready to go, but knowing that I am about to hurt and cause people immense grief makes me pause. I myself have struggled with complicated grief and know first hand the pain that cause which me feel guilty putting it on others.

I know there is no magic answer, but how does one move past this? Ending my life is something I need to do, but I hate this feeling of selfishness I'm experiencing.

 

[copioushopelessness]

I feel this too. Not many care but a few people might. I guess just let them know you're no longer suffering beforehand. I know that doesn't change the grief but it may let others know that you just didn't want to feel pain anymore. They will know it wasn't impulsive.

 

[iset]

That's the hardest part I think.... thinking of people who will be traumatized or even destroyed by my choice. I dont't have a solution for that...

 

[LastWhisper]

Yes, same thing, but we own our lives, so we're able to do with it anything we want, no matter what others will say/feel/etc. I mean, when it comes to such global choices, it's okay to chose yourself and your own comfort. I know my death will cause a lot of troubles for other people, but should I continue to suffer just because of that? I think no. Everyone's is selfishness actually, we all do things that are best for ourselves first, and if does for others, its kinda side effect of what we do for ourselves.

 

[thelostautistic]

Honestly I don't know if there is a way past it. It's a very human thing to feel I'm right there with you though. It's so hard