I'm sorry about all the bad thoughts you're having. Working while having thoughts of CTB is terrible. Are you allowed to listen to music or listen to YouTube videos or something while working? That's what I do sometimes while I'm at work to try and get rid of the bad thoughts.
thats horrible, sounds similar to my case, even the smallest things can trigger me and leave me with a full blown loop of frustrating negative thoughts till im completely absorbed by negativity. and the worst is the more i try to suppress those thoughts, the stronger they get...
No were not allowed but depending on who's in charge I can usually get away with it, I'm listening to the cure right now actually though I don't know about you but sometimes music brings up thoughts or bad feelings and I end up feeling worse lol
It seems like we can relate alot then. Like I told freedom believer sometimes even music makes me feel worse and if I try thinking of stuff to feep better I end up getting frustrated cause I realize or tell myself nothing will help then I'm left engulfed in negative thoughts as you said. But hey at least we got each other right
Yeah it makes a simple task seem endless but theres times at least for me when my coworkers actually manage to make me a little happier. Hope the same goes for you
