It could be anything. For me personally it's getting better healthwise from my last attempt, getting a nice bed (never had one in my life and want to get one), getting enough money for nembutal too, and fostering a dog.
I'm looking forward to catching the bus once someone's there with me. That really is the only thing I'm looking forward to. Everything else in the meantime, is just happily but sentimentally going through the motions. But I try to be a good human as I live out my final days/weeks, who knows how long. Hooray!
Edit: I really can't begin to tell you how happy I am looking forward. If it ever comes, that is, which is a little mood-killer, as the voice in my head often reminds me. Oh well, I take it as it comes, so that's all I can do. If i can't, then I can't. If i do, then i do. So many variables. You're all such nice people...