nothing makes me more optimistic anymore, but I'm grateful for quite a few things. grateful for what (little) i've had up until this point. grateful for my parents, they fucked up but they meant nothing but the best. grateful for my small family in general. grateful for my cat... music (quite a few artists releasing albums lately that I'll get to listen to before catching the bus, yay!), video games, books, internet, clothes, friends (even though I've had to cut them off), drugs, alcohol, electricity, animals
i guess i could keep rambling but I'm grateful I've gotten to experience and relatively enjoy my life up until recently.