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turning my back towards death
- Jan 6, 2025
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I have removed my original post because I wasn't in the emotional state to fully appreciate some amazing responses I was given and this is for people to decide on for themselves and their ctb. There was a moderator's message the last time that I didn't saved but I remembered it shared 'some facts may be speculated and can not be confirmed as factual and be warned if you try', which is true, and forgive me if my memory gets hazy and I was completely brain rot, but I forgot to have edited my title, but all the source material I used was very evidential and I had made some mistakes along the lines with some of my writing, so forgive me, especially as I have a formative learning disability. I thought to give up on this subject because I am not the right person for it, I know I'm not, and instead, have to deal with that insecurity, and it's hard to feel genuine support when you're easily pushed to be ignored, even though this may be my post, it is a team effort, but it's the fact I even provided it for the public's opinion and benefit that made me want to shay from the review, as I never felt supported in my life and I appreciate all criticism, but please don't insinuate I am providing misinformation either based on some things being removed or quite old, I have been reviewing newer timelines too, and this isn't just speculation history, either, but evidence and research into the awarenessness of such things even promoting a deeper claim for some to understand better), yet a ctber died by my research, I guess, and would make these occasional posts sometimes because I have done this for 2 entire years.
I brought it back up because I want to be dead this year, I equally would forget to and want to pretend I am dead and just leave this up again for others who need it more than I, and I am sort of okay now to bring this back up, but I realistically just wish I was dead already and will just share my history regarding other variants methods and what I knew, and I don't have these access anymore but perhaps someone else does so good luck and enjoy the ride, because I know how badly it is.
Also, my original method from these was coffee powder and making a tincture vial from concentrated oleander and yew flowers but it takes 6 weeks and I don't have the patience…, and I had kept changing it to perhaps drug myself as I do well with that as a method as I like being weak anyways as I pass.
I don't remembered his name, but truly once again, thank you for your knowledge on alcohol and where ethanol production comes from.
That was very cool and quite detailed more than what I was taught in school…
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And this time, I edited out everything to make sense for people who wish to perhaps read between the lines this time, especially as I thought everything had some form of communication
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Coffee powder with alcohol
Poison plant with alcohol
Long Island tea drink with unisom and doxe (seen someone on SW forget they were breathing and wasn't responding or conscious)
Energy drinks and being dehydrated
Diazepam or any benzodiazepines or both and alcohol
Cocaine, Doxepin , alcohol
Psych meds, Metoclopramide, and alcohol (not psychedelics but prescription from psychiatrics, especially when saving your rounds, but if psychedelics , take the ones with seizures as those have more fatalities, won't share which search yourself)
Benzos, magnesium glycinate, or Benadryl (not actually used but can be, but shared how Elvis died and how just messing with your system can cause long term stages of this eventually leading to ctb or in generally using substances altogether and using strong ones, too, but this is speculation; however, many of those deaths leads otherwise, especially Marilyn's before her accidental overdose from alcohol and 5 types of drugs and using this one kind that no longer is around and it's written in the PPH book, too, and especially on the Dark Web — read all about it and find it under the forums, too, and reach out to me if it's somewhere on the site, as well, to get the PDF for viewing purposes much discreetly) and gas exit bag (controversial because of how hearts are for some people)
Lack of food and water, very small water or food because of calories, and becoming low in blood pressure
Natural health issues or other problems and destroyed liver, stomach, [1] and heart from first few attempts and or problems prior (controversial because it's otc but these are two different women in the last two years)
Prazosin, doxe, hydrox, and bupropion , Escitalopram together
Doxe with coke
Opioids alone or with alcohol (heard this does the trick but not fully certain, read this article, however, opioids is heavily strong enough to do the trick)
Camphor, pennyroyal, wintergreen (should not be taken alone), cod, castor, fish, krill oils
Fentanyl and cocaine
Bendy and Prozac (Death of Nex BenedictWikipediahttps://en.wikipedia.org › wiki › Death_of_Nex_Benedict)
Sodium nitrate and alcohol (perhaps because of its dehydration properties and being more unconscious feeling this would be more beneficial even if you take benzos)
Pesticide and herbicide (commonly used in certain areas of the east and by a Chinese streamer before her corpse was stolen :(( and by many Koreans who do not have such hopes and find ways
Liquid nitrogen substance or gas
Petrol gas
Chocking on food and or with alcohol by being drunk and not remembering to shallow (quite rare not much based facts)
Drinking gallon of water plus your body weight
Electrolyte imbalance from drinking (gallon) this a day (also body weight, but it depends)
Eating too fastly (research this more on how your stomach will leak as it did so to a Chinese mukbunger and is quite rare but not as much but can happen just like chocking on your own food)
Energy drinks alone and having a protein imbalance [1] or protein gene you don't know about [2]
Cyanide (too hard to get hands on, but of course)
Domp or Comp
Gaba or Trama
Urea (Recommend brand LW)
Benzos, antihestime, stimulants
Bendy and prozac
With these searches, rest in peace to those who were subjected to this treatment and pain and what they had to endure later on, and I'm so thankful they gave us the opportunity to learn from both their experiences and to aid us in our mistakes, despite the pain they went through, and hoping they are in a better world far far from here to never be subjected to pain again.
Did this to take away from hanging, jumping, and the use of sn or if you are still in wanting of those, just choose you take alcohol and benzos beforehand and prior before it kicks in to have no awareness of the pin and to have a steeper chance at what your doing and if at all land on your back as it will cut your spinal cord and rupture your lungs that it not only paralyzes you but breaks your heart vessels and to breathe in air and this will even cause a brain injury but it you will have struggling alone from the injury on your back and how it will cause more damage from the height you are going and if at all, because my friend's method was this way, he shared how starving himself for months helped and the day before he was free from his pain, he discussed with me his health and how it was slowly rotting away and I was dehydrating myself then, but my method was always a little complex
Hope this information helps anyone!
I have removed my original post because I wasn't in the emotional state to fully appreciate some amazing responses I was given and this is for people to decide on for themselves and their ctb. There was a moderator's message the last time that I didn't saved but I remembered it shared 'some facts may be speculated and can not be confirmed as factual and be warned if you try', which is true, and forgive me if my memory gets hazy and I was completely brain rot, but I forgot to have edited my title, but all the source material I used was very evidential and I had made some mistakes along the lines with some of my writing, so forgive me, especially as I have a formative learning disability. I thought to give up on this subject because I am not the right person for it, I know I'm not, and instead, have to deal with that insecurity, and it's hard to feel genuine support when you're easily pushed to be ignored, even though this may be my post, it is a team effort, but it's the fact I even provided it for the public's opinion and benefit that made me want to shay from the review, as I never felt supported in my life and I appreciate all criticism, but please don't insinuate I am providing misinformation either based on some things being removed or quite old, I have been reviewing newer timelines too, and this isn't just speculation history, either, but evidence and research into the awarenessness of such things even promoting a deeper claim for some to understand better), yet a ctber died by my research, I guess, and would make these occasional posts sometimes because I have done this for 2 entire years.
I brought it back up because I want to be dead this year, I equally would forget to and want to pretend I am dead and just leave this up again for others who need it more than I, and I am sort of okay now to bring this back up, but I realistically just wish I was dead already and will just share my history regarding other variants methods and what I knew, and I don't have these access anymore but perhaps someone else does so good luck and enjoy the ride, because I know how badly it is.
Also, my original method from these was coffee powder and making a tincture vial from concentrated oleander and yew flowers but it takes 6 weeks and I don't have the patience…, and I had kept changing it to perhaps drug myself as I do well with that as a method as I like being weak anyways as I pass.
I don't remembered his name, but truly once again, thank you for your knowledge on alcohol and where ethanol production comes from.
That was very cool and quite detailed more than what I was taught in school…
——
And this time, I edited out everything to make sense for people who wish to perhaps read between the lines this time, especially as I thought everything had some form of communication
——
Coffee powder with alcohol
Poison plant with alcohol
Long Island tea drink with unisom and doxe (seen someone on SW forget they were breathing and wasn't responding or conscious)
Energy drinks and being dehydrated
Diazepam or any benzodiazepines or both and alcohol
Cocaine, Doxepin , alcohol
Psych meds, Metoclopramide, and alcohol (not psychedelics but prescription from psychiatrics, especially when saving your rounds, but if psychedelics , take the ones with seizures as those have more fatalities, won't share which search yourself)
Benzos, magnesium glycinate, or Benadryl (not actually used but can be, but shared how Elvis died and how just messing with your system can cause long term stages of this eventually leading to ctb or in generally using substances altogether and using strong ones, too, but this is speculation; however, many of those deaths leads otherwise, especially Marilyn's before her accidental overdose from alcohol and 5 types of drugs and using this one kind that no longer is around and it's written in the PPH book, too, and especially on the Dark Web — read all about it and find it under the forums, too, and reach out to me if it's somewhere on the site, as well, to get the PDF for viewing purposes much discreetly) and gas exit bag (controversial because of how hearts are for some people)
Lack of food and water, very small water or food because of calories, and becoming low in blood pressure
Natural health issues or other problems and destroyed liver, stomach, [1] and heart from first few attempts and or problems prior (controversial because it's otc but these are two different women in the last two years)
Prazosin, doxe, hydrox, and bupropion , Escitalopram together
Doxe with coke
Opioids alone or with alcohol (heard this does the trick but not fully certain, read this article, however, opioids is heavily strong enough to do the trick)
Camphor, pennyroyal, wintergreen (should not be taken alone), cod, castor, fish, krill oils
Fentanyl and cocaine
Bendy and Prozac (Death of Nex BenedictWikipediahttps://en.wikipedia.org › wiki › Death_of_Nex_Benedict)
Sodium nitrate and alcohol (perhaps because of its dehydration properties and being more unconscious feeling this would be more beneficial even if you take benzos)
Pesticide and herbicide (commonly used in certain areas of the east and by a Chinese streamer before her corpse was stolen :(( and by many Koreans who do not have such hopes and find ways
Liquid nitrogen substance or gas
Petrol gas
Chocking on food and or with alcohol by being drunk and not remembering to shallow (quite rare not much based facts)
Drinking gallon of water plus your body weight
Electrolyte imbalance from drinking (gallon) this a day (also body weight, but it depends)
Eating too fastly (research this more on how your stomach will leak as it did so to a Chinese mukbunger and is quite rare but not as much but can happen just like chocking on your own food)
Energy drinks alone and having a protein imbalance [1] or protein gene you don't know about [2]
Cyanide (too hard to get hands on, but of course)
Domp or Comp
Gaba or Trama
Urea (Recommend brand LW)
Benzos, antihestime, stimulants
Bendy and prozac
With these searches, rest in peace to those who were subjected to this treatment and pain and what they had to endure later on, and I'm so thankful they gave us the opportunity to learn from both their experiences and to aid us in our mistakes, despite the pain they went through, and hoping they are in a better world far far from here to never be subjected to pain again.
Did this to take away from hanging, jumping, and the use of sn or if you are still in wanting of those, just choose you take alcohol and benzos beforehand and prior before it kicks in to have no awareness of the pin and to have a steeper chance at what your doing and if at all land on your back as it will cut your spinal cord and rupture your lungs that it not only paralyzes you but breaks your heart vessels and to breathe in air and this will even cause a brain injury but it you will have struggling alone from the injury on your back and how it will cause more damage from the height you are going and if at all, because my friend's method was this way, he shared how starving himself for months helped and the day before he was free from his pain, he discussed with me his health and how it was slowly rotting away and I was dehydrating myself then, but my method was always a little complex
Hope this information helps anyone!
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