Venting Things I miss

[Deleted member 1465]

This is just a purely self indulgent post cus I have nothing better to do than feel self pity. But hey.

I remember driving my car. That feeling on the motorway when you just get the ebb and flow of the traffic just right and it feels like you are flying.
I miss my home. Sitting on the terrace with a beer after a day working in the garden. I loved my little garden. I miss the neighbours dog too. He'd bring all his toys over to play. Bless.
I remember my days in the sun after university. I was an archaeologist and the world was full of adventure. Before the days of the Internet and mobile phones, I had a tent and a pair of old boots and I could go anywhere.
And I remember travelling in Canada and the states, especially those weeks in Wyoming pretending to be a cowboy! 8 hours in the saddle every day on the prairie.
I even miss working for a living.

Okay pity party over.

 

[Rachel74]

I miss excitement, that feeling on Christmas Eve when you was a kid and not wanting to sleep. Love to feel that again.

This is just a purely self indulgent post cus I have nothing better to do than feel self pity. But hey.

I remember driving my car. That feeling on the motorway when you just get the ebb and flow of the traffic just right and it feels like you are flying.
I miss my home. Sitting on the terrace with a beer after a day working in the garden. I loved my little garden. I miss the neighbours dog too. He'd bring all his toys over to play. Bless.
I remember my days in the sun after university. I was an archaeologist and the world was full of adventure. Before the days of the Internet and mobile phones, I had a tent and a pair of old boots and I could go anywhere.
And I remember travelling in Canada and the states, especially those weeks in Wyoming pretending to be a cowboy! 8 hours in the saddle every day on the prairie.
I even miss working for a living.

Okay pity party over.

Can I come to the party please?

 

[Sweet emotion]

This is just a purely self indulgent post cus I have nothing better to do than feel self pity. But hey.

I remember driving my car. That feeling on the motorway when you just get the ebb and flow of the traffic just right and it feels like you are flying.
I miss my home. Sitting on the terrace with a beer after a day working in the garden. I loved my little garden. I miss the neighbours dog too. He'd bring all his toys over to play. Bless.
I remember my days in the sun after university. I was an archaeologist and the world was full of adventure. Before the days of the Internet and mobile phones, I had a tent and a pair of old boots and I could go anywhere.
And I remember travelling in Canada and the states, especially those weeks in Wyoming pretending to be a cowboy! 8 hours in the saddle every day on the prairie.
I even miss working for a living.

Okay pity party over.

I can't drive anymore either and I loved to drive. It was a feeling of freedom. Just being able to go wherever you wanted whenever you wanted. Putting on the radio it popping in a CD and just rocking out to the music. I can't drive anymore since I'm on medication. It has slowed me down and my mind isn't as sharp and my reflexes aren't as fast. I would never want to hurt myself or anyone else. I remember a lot of other things as well. It's not self pity. It's completely normal to think about all the things you used to do and can't anymore. I'm the first to admit I feel sorry for myself. It's true. If you feel sorry for yourself that is okay too. It's normal to.

This is just a purely self indulgent post cus I have nothing better to do than feel self pity. But hey.

I remember driving my car. That feeling on the motorway when you just get the ebb and flow of the traffic just right and it feels like you are flying.
I miss my home. Sitting on the terrace with a beer after a day working in the garden. I loved my little garden. I miss the neighbours dog too. He'd bring all his toys over to play. Bless.
I remember my days in the sun after university. I was an archaeologist and the world was full of adventure. Before the days of the Internet and mobile phones, I had a tent and a pair of old boots and I could go anywhere.
And I remember travelling in Canada and the states, especially those weeks in Wyoming pretending to be a cowboy! 8 hours in the saddle every day on the prairie.
I even miss working for a living.

Okay pity party over.

I can't drive anymore either and I loved to drive. It was a feeling of freedom. Just being able to go wherever you wanted whenever you wanted. Putting on the radio it popping in a CD and just rocking out to the music. I can't drive anymore since I'm on medication. It has slowed me down and my mind isn't as sharp and my reflexes aren't as fast. I would never want to hurt myself or anyone else. I remember a lot of other things as well. It's not self pity. It's completely normal to think about all the things you used to do and can't anymore. I'm the first to admit I feel sorry for myself. It's true. If you feel sorry for yourself that is okay too. It's normal to.

I miss excitement, that feeling on Christmas Eve when you was a kid and not wanting to sleep. Love to feel that again.

Can I come to the party please?

Haha I'll come to the party too. So we have three people so far. We can sit around the table telling stories of the old days like my grandfather does haha. Hey our lives aren't the same as they used to be and it's normal to miss what we had. I can name a hundred things I miss being able to do but I'd be here forever. Just know it's normal to feel that way.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Yeah you can both join the party
I miss Christmas too been alone the past 3 years. And I stopped driving for the same reasons, would have been irresponsible to continue.

 

[sadgirl2002]

I miss the moments where me and my best friend at the time, had together. We'd go exploring everywhere whilst we took days off college. I miss my high school days, even though I was miserable, I'd rather be back then, than now.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I miss my childhood dog. I miss all dogs. Always had a problem with people but dogs loved me!

When humanity is gone, in another ten million years, and I'm woken from my cryogenic pod, I for one will welcome our bipedal canine overlords!

 

[Boochky]

I miss my old company from before we were acquired. Being bipolar in corporate was always rough, but that place was like the Goldilocks company for me. I worked from home, had flex hours, interesting work. They wanted a great culture and only hired friendly people. Ah, the good old days. Of course I fucked it up by going crazy, but it changed after the acquisition anyway.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I miss driving on Christmas day. An empty motorway! I'd change lanes just for the fun of it. I'd also listen to Welsh radio: still irritating Christmas songs but at least I couldn't understand the words.

 

[Rachel74]

I miss driving on Christmas day. An empty motorway! I'd change lanes just for the fun of it. I'd also listen to Welsh radio: still irritating Christmas songs but at least I couldn't understand the words.

I do like a welsh accent.

I miss my childhood dog. I miss all dogs. Always had a problem with people but dogs loved me!

When humanity is gone, in another ten million years, and I'm woken from my cryogenic pod, I for one will welcome our bipedal canine overlords!

Some canine overload for ya!

 

[Maximoo]

I miss running around the neighborhood with my best friend in the summers, getting into trouble and just being mischievous kids, not a care in the world. Even in the winters we'd stay outside as late as we could, when it was freezing cold and pitch black outside. But we were having too much fun to go inside, well, most of the time. I really miss that. We said we couldn't wait to grow up, but now I wish I could go back and stay a kid forever...

 

[Midnight]

I miss having a person i love next to me.
I miss driving and modifying my previous car.
I miss a few people that went away/died.

 

[sammii]

I miss my dog and my cats that died this year and last year, I had them since I was a kid, they were all really old. My friend's dog died last year and I miss him too, he was a sweetheart.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I miss my little garden wildlife pond. All the plants frogs toads newts and dragonflies.

 

[Dazedandconfused32]

I miss the girl inside that I used to know. The one that put up a fight and never let anyone bring her down. Now I feel as though I've let them all win. Truly I feel such a failure.

 

[BipolarExpat]

I miss the silence of frozen, winter nights in the woods of Ohio.

I miss the excitement of first love, upcoming concerts, impending travel, meetups and parties (pre-anxious days).

I miss trekking up mountains, through deserts, jungles and rocky seashores.

I miss cooking and treating others when I valued nourishing, delicious food(s).

I miss my younger self - so full of wonder, charisma, confidence, love and appreciation.

I miss "me."

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I miss my Home. All the endless roads I've travelled, to have come down through all the years and all the miles and be faced with such an ignoble fate. But I miss my Home.

 

[BipolarExpat]

I miss my early years in Korea and Thailand.
There was such a rawness to living then...everything felt so new and even "cowboy," in a near lawless sense.
Without internet/mobile phones/cctv, life felt more free and indeed it was. We got away with a ton of nonsense with repercussions amounting to nothing more than stern warnings, if that.

It's kind of sad to see both countries adopting many of the USA's ways especially in terms of police-state, tightened immigration, money always first while pricing out decent medical care.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I miss my early years in Korea and Thailand.
There was such a rawness to living then...everything felt so new and even "cowboy," in a near lawless sense.
Without internet/mobile phones/cctv, life felt more free and indeed it was. We got away with a ton of nonsense with repercussions amounting to nothing more than stern warnings, if that.

It's kind of sad to see both countries adopting many of the USA's ways especially in terms of police-state, tightened immigration, money always first while pricing out decent medical care.

Agreed. I miss the days when I had no phone no pc no Internet. Life was indeed wilder and less regulated. When you called a company you talked to a person who would be flexible in how they helped you. Now you get endless options and no flexibilty. Now the computer always says no.

 

[BipolarExpat]

Agreed. I miss the days when I had no phone no pc no Internet. Life was indeed wilder and less regulated. When you called a company you talked to a person who would be flexible in how they helped you. Now you get endless options and no flexibilty. Now the computer always says no.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/anyone-else-feels-old.21758/#post-403466

You might enjoy post #17 (and/or others)..,

 

[TheGoodGuy]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/anyone-else-feels-old.21758/#post-403466

You might enjoy post #17 (and/or others)..,

That post deserve it´s own because it´s insanely accurate and will be missed when it´s just a post within a thread.

 

[AlexBlue]

I miss smoking cigarettes at 3 a. m on the rooftop of the terrace of the rehab facility I used to live in

 

[Dazedandconfused32]

I miss smoking cigarettes at 3 a. m on the rooftop of the terrace of the rehab facility I used to live in

Idk why but that sounds so nice right now

 

[AlexBlue]

Idk why but that sounds so nice right now

it was
Living in a rehab facility was cool in general for some reasons (but not for other reasons)
I really miss the fact that I could cry out my eyes in the bathroom or staying in bed all day and nobody would treat me as a fool

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I miss working in Photoshop and Illustrator.

 

[schopenh]

I miss everything. Literally just existing with no other comforts but specifically with the absence of severe neruopathic pain; I would trade all I have for one day sitting in an empty room like this before I CTB.
I try to keep these thoughts out of my mind as much as is humanely possible.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I miss rotary phones. The ring always sounded so friendly.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I miss... that first pint in the pub of an evening. Chatting to the barmaid. Being followed around by the pub dog. Getting locked in.

 

[Rachel74]

I miss my mum, corny I know but she was amazing She indulged me in manic shopping sprees and cooked me chicken broth in my depressed episodes. She didn't get bipolar but she was my best friend

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I miss my mum too. She was tiny and fierce. Like a mini viking warrior. Nothing stood in her way, nothing. At one mad point I even considered the possibility that she would beat dementia. She would just not give up. I inherited her stubbornness but not her toughness.

 

[Conker]

I miss when the skies weren't so saturated with chemtrails & the sun was more of an embraceable yellow. Miss being able to feel any positive emotion.