Venting they’re the only reason I’m living, but to them I’m just another friend

[skybluesuicide]

It's quite pathetic when I think about it. I'm only living because of them, yet they probably don't care much about me at all - not to the extent I care about them at least. They're my life. I'm just another person in their DMs.

 

[leloyon]

My acquaintances don't give me any reason to live, but I get this to an extent. It always feels like my "friends" (if they can be called that, even ignoring the fact that they're all online) are always just tolerating me. Like they care about everyone else except me, and it's me that has to put in any effort just to get a crumb of acknowledgement from them.

 

[Odahviing475]

The fact that I'm so dependent on a few people only makes me want to die more cause I feel like a burden. It's somewhat ironic. Being alone makes me want to CTB, but feeling like a burden also does the same. There's really no escape from this other than temp ones such as alcohol and drugs.