Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
I bet that title got your attention!
As we know, we are all worried about pro lifers and fake accounts infiltrating our home. The recent activity as of late has caused unnecessary paranoia, which honestly, we do not need.
We do, however, have people here who I like to call and nicknamed them 'the hand holders.' These people are not CTBers like us. However they accept us.
These unique individuals, you may have seen, have showered this forum with loving posts and comments. They are there at goodbye threads showering the person with kind words and love.
Most of all, these people listen. Non-judgemental. I commented to a few members, I see them like a nun or priest. You can talk to them and they listen and show kindness. In was born Jewish. I had a nun I used to speak to.
Two of these hand holders are @Ame (who I adopted as my mother) and @Iloveyouall
Honestly. We are too busy thinking about our own pain (and in my personal case, trying to keep down my SI) to think the hand holders have feelings to.
We are used to goodbye threads. We are used to the pain people feel here. We can empathize with each other, because we relate. We are CTBers. We are here because we are in pain and want to CTB.
We develop friendships here. Sometimes for the first time in our life. We know the pain of losing a forum member we are close to. But, being in the same pain ourselves, we understand why they did it. Only a person in that kind of pain themselves can really understand.
But what about the hand holders? They come here to help. For whatever reason, they chose to come here and support us. Not try to stop us, but to show they care.
What happens to these hand holders seeing the pain here? They are human. They develop relationships just like us. They hurt when they lose someone they are close to.
I can't imagine what a person who actually is selflessly caring about us feels coming here.
They are here to help. Yet the pain here continues despite their darndest to try to make us more comfortable.
I have witnessed the pain these hand holders go through. I have seen their tears. I have seen the hurt they go through because we are hurting.
I am sorry these people are going through this pain. But in a way it shows us something. It shows us here we matter. Tell me. When was the last time someone cared about you? Cared if you are hurting? Cared about your feelings?
I can say for myself not until I came here. One of the reasons why I am here personally.
I would like to thank @Ame and @Iloveyouall. I have seen what you are going through. I am sure I can speak for many here.
Thank you for the love and kindness you have shown us. Thank you for caring. Thank you for supporting us and our desire to CTB without giving up pro life flowery nonsense.
We so need you here. We need more like you. No. You can't cure us as much as I know you want to. We are still going to be in pain and many of us are too damaged to be helped. We will continue to CTB.
However, for a brief second when you are so kind, the pain is lessened. We speak with you and for a brief second, we feel we matter. When we leave this horrible planet, we feel your love and leave with that feeling.
I hope the guests on the forum read this.
We are here because life circumstances destroyed our lives. No. Quoting the Bible or giving false, unrealistic hopes is not going to save us. We are still going to CTB whether you try to stop us or not.
We are still going to CTB if this forum wasn't here.
I have no issues with pro lifers as long as you don't impose your beliefs on us.
Pro lifers. Want to help us? Be like @Ame and @Iloveyouall. Listen to us. Respect our decisions, show us that you actually care... instead of trying to change us.
Special shout out to another hand holder @jgm63
To those who need to talk, and I am sleeping (hey, a girl can wish lol), I vouch for them.
They are good, caring people. We need more like them. If the world was filled with more people like them, this forum may not be necessary... and the world would be a much kinder place. One we may actually want to live for.
As we know, we are all worried about pro lifers and fake accounts infiltrating our home. The recent activity as of late has caused unnecessary paranoia, which honestly, we do not need.
We do, however, have people here who I like to call and nicknamed them 'the hand holders.' These people are not CTBers like us. However they accept us.
These unique individuals, you may have seen, have showered this forum with loving posts and comments. They are there at goodbye threads showering the person with kind words and love.
Most of all, these people listen. Non-judgemental. I commented to a few members, I see them like a nun or priest. You can talk to them and they listen and show kindness. In was born Jewish. I had a nun I used to speak to.
Two of these hand holders are @Ame (who I adopted as my mother) and @Iloveyouall
Honestly. We are too busy thinking about our own pain (and in my personal case, trying to keep down my SI) to think the hand holders have feelings to.
We are used to goodbye threads. We are used to the pain people feel here. We can empathize with each other, because we relate. We are CTBers. We are here because we are in pain and want to CTB.
We develop friendships here. Sometimes for the first time in our life. We know the pain of losing a forum member we are close to. But, being in the same pain ourselves, we understand why they did it. Only a person in that kind of pain themselves can really understand.
But what about the hand holders? They come here to help. For whatever reason, they chose to come here and support us. Not try to stop us, but to show they care.
What happens to these hand holders seeing the pain here? They are human. They develop relationships just like us. They hurt when they lose someone they are close to.
I can't imagine what a person who actually is selflessly caring about us feels coming here.
They are here to help. Yet the pain here continues despite their darndest to try to make us more comfortable.
I have witnessed the pain these hand holders go through. I have seen their tears. I have seen the hurt they go through because we are hurting.
I am sorry these people are going through this pain. But in a way it shows us something. It shows us here we matter. Tell me. When was the last time someone cared about you? Cared if you are hurting? Cared about your feelings?
I can say for myself not until I came here. One of the reasons why I am here personally.
I would like to thank @Ame and @Iloveyouall. I have seen what you are going through. I am sure I can speak for many here.
Thank you for the love and kindness you have shown us. Thank you for caring. Thank you for supporting us and our desire to CTB without giving up pro life flowery nonsense.
We so need you here. We need more like you. No. You can't cure us as much as I know you want to. We are still going to be in pain and many of us are too damaged to be helped. We will continue to CTB.
However, for a brief second when you are so kind, the pain is lessened. We speak with you and for a brief second, we feel we matter. When we leave this horrible planet, we feel your love and leave with that feeling.
I hope the guests on the forum read this.
We are here because life circumstances destroyed our lives. No. Quoting the Bible or giving false, unrealistic hopes is not going to save us. We are still going to CTB whether you try to stop us or not.
We are still going to CTB if this forum wasn't here.
I have no issues with pro lifers as long as you don't impose your beliefs on us.
Pro lifers. Want to help us? Be like @Ame and @Iloveyouall. Listen to us. Respect our decisions, show us that you actually care... instead of trying to change us.
Special shout out to another hand holder @jgm63
To those who need to talk, and I am sleeping (hey, a girl can wish lol), I vouch for them.
They are good, caring people. We need more like them. If the world was filled with more people like them, this forum may not be necessary... and the world would be a much kinder place. One we may actually want to live for.
